the makings of mocha and latte

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2005-11-22T00:19:00.000-08:00

P.S. Ignore the unavailable pictures for de moment. stupid mypicgallery has no free service now. muz subscribe den can use. *sob*

lovely weekend

2005-07-31T23:08:00.000-07:00

ok im so bored, tt i decided to pen dwn an entry. *yawns*

de tout of havin to resize my fotos n stuff makes me ah..sian..so yup, pics hav to wait. lol.

wkend's soon gonna b over..lets c.. Friday..ha, a happening dae i wld sae. de dae tt i felt so stressed out n broke dwn b4 i wen home. sigh~ as u noe its de mth end.. cheques r overwhelming. i get repeated nagging fr my officers. to b faster etc. but wad can i do if de cheques come late? i cant b fast if i dun receive it fast rite? sigh~

anyway i was so lookin fwd to seeing dearie after work, so i tried to smile n b happy. June came over my plc at 5, den i complained to her bout it. how tortourous. worse, dey wan to change bk my lunch timing to 1130. how bad can tt be! argh~ i'll b all alone for lunch again can. hai~ while tokin to her, i teared, tryin to cover up as i was stil at office.

come 530, i was bout to leave soon. v angry tt ive been stayin ot yet like nt appreciated. de tout of everythg tt happen tt dae.. de short of time i had.. total number came to 653 posting of cheques! de norms are only like 400+.. and doin it all alone is no joke. =( i brokedwn n cried on de spot. its de accumulative effect, thus i was feelin terrible n jus let out by crying. nv did i expect Joanne to b cryin too. sigh~ i was waiting for her to knock off, and instead of being able to leave.. our officers wanted to tok to us. gosh~

we stayed. we tok it out. i couldnt tok properly. we told dem how we felt. stress is present in all work envt..but here, its over-stressed! mainly bcos, its under staffed! for goodness sake, v soon, there'll only b contract staffs here. one by one, perm staff r resigning/transferring! *faint*

my upper officer can stil act blur n sae he din noe im doin all de posting of chq alone. i dunno if tts true. i reali cant trust his words. i mean, u'r sth like a manager, how can u not noe ur staff job duties? sigh~ only wen things happen lidat, den u show concern? *bullshit*

anyway, we tok til bout 8+. yes, so late rite. so sick can. heng dearie also came out late. if nt hafta make him wait so long. =( sorry to make u worried dearie. he called me in de midst of de conversation wif my officers, he heard me crying, he tout sth bad happen to me physically. *hugs*

we left ard 830 den i waited for dearie to send his fren to chalet, b4 he came over to pick us up. he sent Joanne home, den we headed to his plc for a v late dinner. lol. dinner was after 10! ha. see y im growin fat? LOL. dinner was yummy! dearie's mum cooked my fav chilli prawns n sotong! hee. i love tt. =)

stayed at his plc for a short while..den i left. dearie was too tired le, so sent me home. =) ended up, i found myself @ Newton Circus! LOL. he knew i missed de food thr. thanks dearie, for bringing me thr despite u being tired! *muacks*

Saturday was work as usual. oh man. ppl looked at us differently. wif tt kind of stares. guess words spread ard pretty fast. tho not many ppl werent present during our "tok wif officers", some tt were there muz hav told de absent ppl. sigh~

work was quite horrible, cos one of de bags of chq came late. de driver brought de wrong bag. ha! Joanne waited for me til 130 to go off togeda (thanks gal..) but we were stopped! gosh~ our 2 officers wanted a tok wif us. alamak. *faint*

de tok was pretty gd at least. dey agreed to change my lunch bk to 12noon. hope dey dun make anymore changes. sigh~ and regarding my work, dey informed me tt dey wil find some1 to help me.. but how true is it..i also dunno la hur? *frown*

de meeting only ended at 230! poor dearie. he wen there early and i even left office late. sorry for makin u wait 2 hrs! *sorrie*

hee, as we walked to de car, i saw sth stickin out fr de car. i casually ask "hey why got sth there one?" i tout its someone else's stuff.. dearie din reply so i wen in.. tadah! dearie gt me sth for our monthly anni! =) plus a swt swt card tt wrote "for my wife on our anniversary.." *grin grin* hee! =p i tink i was so elated, i kept tokin lame jokes, making dearie faint faint faint. geez. =D thank u for de surprise my baby panda! *hugs*

we headed to Bugis for Sakak Sushi lunchie! *smiles* yummy yummy! been months since i ate there. hee. we've a habit, tt is to tk a Neoprint on every monthly anni. =) and Bugis is always my first choice. :)

not much $$ to go shopping. so sad. i cant spend all, if nt sure jialat nex time. sob. where to go on a dae tt i cant spend $$? - Fort Canning! hee. dearie knew i wanted to tk pics, so yup, he drove me there. lucky, de rain's sorta gone le. =) i love de walk wif u dear, thanks!

afterwhich, we headed to dearie's granny's plc for dinner. *smiles* de mothers were tokin, topic on smoking. bout how bad it is. its v serious, so.. dun smoke ya! unless u dun wan ur life lor.. plus gals hu smoke/hav husbands hu smoke, it'll affect ur pregnancy de!

dinner was v yummy. delicious curry chicken! hee. i lazed ard at de living rm watching tv. after tt, dey decided to watch fantastic 4 dvd! hee. dearie was so happy to b able to watch it. ha. not bad show. =) they were tokin bout life..marriage.. etc. how time flies. dearie's uncle took out pics of dem during those holiday trips. saw dearie's cutie picture wen he was stil v young. hee. den dey tok bout gg to Taiwan as a family holiday in Sep after dearie's Passing Out Parade (POP). dearie's mum ask me to go, hope i can! =) saving up even more now. *grin* greedy us.. had pizza after tt! dearie's aunty ordered Canadian pizza! so yummy! hee, de hawaiian was so nice! haha..im tokin bout food and only food. lol. we stayed til 12+ b4 we left..pretty tired le. it was a nice gathering cum dinner. seeing all his aunties and couzzies again. *smiles*

Sunday, i had a pretty gd slp last nite. *happie* sleepy dearie look so cute and innocent wen he jus wake up. hee. :p we had breakfast togeda (or is it lunch? lol..) wif dearie's mum at de nearby market. food was not too bad! shared kway chap wif dearie's mum while dearie ordered mixed rice for himself. greedy him! ahha. after eating.. its napping time, LOL! we watched some cartoons (we're stil young at heart! haha) initially, but soon doze off in our dreams..lol. v nice slp i had again. no disturbance. =) of cuz i woke up earlier than dearie. lol. had quite a bit of time, so took his clothes n packed his army stuff into tt big big bag! so big man! like luggage! lol.

my baby panda only woke up ard 3+. *faint* left hse ard 4+ n headed for dunno-wad-meal. is is late lunch or early dinner hur? *blur* haha. i feel so bloated after tt. there wasnt a lot of time left, so cancelled de shop-for-formal-clothes-plan, and we jus sat by East Coast Park. =)

a lovely wkend i had. hope urs was gr8 too! =)

damn damn!!

2005-07-28T19:51:00.000-07:00

im so bloody angry!!!

damn. i feel cheated.

there was tis new gal tt came 2wks ago.. also a Diploma grad. apparently, Joanne found out tt she is being paid higher! 100 bucks higher is stil $$ rite?!! and for goodness sake, she also has no exp, and worse, her Diploma is not even in banking n finance. its IT! *faint*

she mention to de manger tt if she's not offerred xxx amt of pay, den she wun work. so end up, dey agreed to it and crap, she was jus given a better pay lidat! how can such things happen?!! i tout there are rules and regulations for pay scheme?!!

Joanne and i are so angry, our msn nic changed to "SCB is shittie. Cheat employees $$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (hers) and "screwed up dept. cheat my $$" (mine) ! bloody hell. =( tml, we're gonna ask de manager regarding tis. at de same time, ask bout overtime. i wan a valid explanation! damn.

jus 2 daes ago..dey fired tis part time staff cos of some minor reasons. so ridiculous can. its not those serious serious kind like stealing or wad. sth so minor! and she gt fired! mad!! like wad June said.. soon, tis company wil only b left wif contract+temp staffs. and dey wil c new faces in and out within months! ANGRY!!

tmls' finally Friday! -> dearie gonna b bk fr field camp! yippppeeeee! =) hee. he managed to come out on Monday nite and of cuz i wen dwn to mit him! hee. was shopping wif Joanne in town, den wen to his plc ard 10. he looked v tired n shag, plus, there were many mosquito bites on his body! aww~ *heartpain* dearie surprised me by driving to newton circus for makan, hee, cos i haven had dinner. =p he said he was tired, bring me home le, but ended up, no! he made my stomach happy! hehe. *thank u dear*

Tuesday, attended SP graduation. de dae we got our Diploma. *smiles* mixed feelins in me. time flies reali fast, i cant beleive 3 yrs jus pass lidat. these 3 yrs, many things happen ard me, be it happy or sad, it made me grow. i feel grateful to de sch, learnt many things thr, fr different kind of lecturers. dey inspired me. and as de sch song was played, tears filled my eyes. i nv regretted making de decision of choosing SP. *smiles* de place where i met nice, caring lecturers. wad kind of friends that are true to u. and of cuz, there, i met dearie. =)

dearie had to book in early last min, so it was pretty rush for us. after havin dinner togeda wif my parents, he had to leave le. *hugs*

im so bored of work, but im contented to hav a better work envt than few mths bk, wen no one tok to me, and no lunch khaki. =( super duper sad tt time. soon, June's leaving. happy for her of cuz, to b able to find a better pay job, and better work timing too. even if she needs to ot, she's being paid! =D she's been a reali nice colleague. tokin to her made me learn bout lotsa stuff. be it personal or work related, her advices and opinion impacted me. =)

lookin fwd to tml! gg to dearie's plc for dinner after picking him up fr Pasir Ris. monthly anni coming, but dearie's too tired tt he forget le. =( *hugs hugs* tk care of urself dearie! miss u lots! *muack*

life's de same..

2005-07-24T09:00:00.000-07:00

..life has been pretty much de same for me i feel..not much to updates.

work, work and stil work. haha. 2nd pay jus got in. yes, so damn pathetic. i cant help but complain. im tryin to save up, for wad purpose i stil dunno, but it'll definitely come in useful some day. de ppl thr are a lil better rite now, i try n smile n joke wif dem, but of cuz.. tt bitch.. stil remains de same. lol. everyday gg Tampines.. now, town to me is v far. =( it takes 40 mins! ha, yes tats far to me. lol, takin into account by de time work finishes, im aldy half dead. haha.

work's pretty gd wif June and Joanna ard. heh, we're the 3 Js! hee. a new gal jus came in, replacing another perm staff who's leaving to work in a branch. i wonder hu's gonna tk over June after she leave in Aug.. if nt i wun hav anyone to tok to in de morn! no one beside me! damn. =(

ha, apparently i tink some staff heard tt im also gonna leave (plans la), so recently, dey told me to teach one of my colleague my job duties. lol. in de event tt im gone...got someone to tk over lo! haha. they're so clever. buahaha... so last wk, i was a 'teacher' at work. lol.

work issue, Joanna and i consulted our officer regarding probs and conflicts at work over lunch one of de wkdaes. he's a nice officer but wif severe mood swings. haha. i gt scolded by him on Monday and Tuesday for no reason! jus bcos he couldnt finish his tasks on time, he blame it on me tt i gave it to him late! wth! i stil mit de cut off lor. grrr~ after tt, he's tone to me was so bloody cold. *sad* anyway, ya, over lunch.. we told him how we felt bout de job.. how pathetic de pay is for such kind of job.. and not being paid overtime. he hav no control over these but we felt better letting him noe? sigh~ work aside..

by 10+ everyday, i wld b soon b in my zzz mode. haha. super duper tired. physically, but more to mentally. haha. im gg crazy. haha.

i dun seem to b able to tok much to my father ever since tt dae. use to feel at ease tellin him bout work stuffs etc, but since tt dae he treated me like tis, i dun feel like communicating much at all. i wouldnt mind saying, but wen i tink of wad happen, i wld jus shut my mouth. i simply dun feel like tokin. but i stil care tho i dun show. there's prolly stil angriness in me, togeda wif sadness. why others can but i cant? de feelin hurts badly.

so much so tt i feel like rebelling. but i noe i cant. dearie doesnt allow me to do tt. sigh~ i guess, tt incident has jus put a scar on my r/s wif dad n me permanently. thus, going back home now is jus like to slp. dun exactly feel happy gg home now. tout of moving out nex yr, live by myself, i learn to b more independent and not dependent on others. stil considering. secondary sch times, moving out has aldy been on my mind. cos i was nv given de freedom =( i hate.

dearie's in field camp now. wonder how he's doing. sigh, muz b tough on him. he's been complaining bout how bored and sian he is of army now. and his platoon sergeant aint tt encouraging too. tel dem tt he's not motivated to train dem at all, unlike his previous batches. i tink tt statement jus demoralised all of dem lo. :/ *hugs dear*

i haven been shopping much. ha. my money's stagnant in my bank account. lol. Monday, gonna go shop shop wif Joanne! heh heh. finally~ suppose to go last wk, but her bf was critically ill, so had to tk care of him. =)

for once, im lookin fwd to work on Monday. hoping tt Monday wil arrive faster. lol, os i cant wait to see dearie on tues! he appealed to b able to come out for few hrs to attend de graduation, so yup, cant wait for Monday, cos if Monday dun comes, Tuesday wouldnt rite? haha. im gettin so happy tinkin of dearie. lol.

i miss u dear!

hav a gr8 week peeps! *smiles*

i miss u so much

2005-07-17T22:41:00.000-07:00

i haven been missing! jus tryin to enjoy myself despite de shit work ive to do! :P

Monday

tried to bring myself to work, as happy as i cld. no pt being sad there, cos i cant avoid de work? my colleague June, told me she has found a new job, tt pays like 1.8? 5 days work wk, n at least, overtime is being paid. she'll b leaving in a mths time. gonna miss her, tho we've only known each other for a short while. after all..she was my tokin-khaki, and of cuz, my lunch khaki. :p who's gonna tok to me in de morning now? boo. dey muz find new ppl! aww. stayed to complete some miscellaneous work til 6, since i was waitin for Joanne to go Bugis togeda! heh. =) she'd to buy her rabbit food..so yup, headed to Bugis! had dinner, and chit chatted til 9+ b4 we headed home, waiting for our bfs to cor us! lol.. *ringg ringg*

Tuesday

it was a tiring day. consoled myself by lookin forward to de upcoming wkend. time pass pretty fast. got my work chop chop done and headed home. back aches again. sigh~

Wednesday

so fast, its de mid wk liao! hee. wen home to watch Superstar. lol. =p

Thursday

*happie* work gets better, wen i treat de bitch as invisible. reali. its like...extremly better lo. got gossip + lunch khaki. wad more can i ask for? even shoppin khaki! hee. yea, Joanna and i headed to bugis again after work. hee. sweet her accompanied me for pedicure. =) thanks a lot sweetie! appreciate ya company! tok bout our r/s along de wae, and it was nice hearing her story. unique one yea? hee. *grin* we had a quick dinner, walked a lil den headed home togeda. we were both pretty tired. i feel so old! aww...

Friday

yay, finally Friday! *smiles* met up wif de pigs...again at Bugis! muahaha.... dinner was at Fish & Co and cheeky Ro played a prank on us. apparently, my fren hu has wen Australia for studies, has come back! and we werent informed! was meant to b like a .. surprise kinda thing. hee. so bad of her! boo. so happie to get dearie's call at nite. its like..tts wad im waiting for after a long dae at work lo. hee. =) dearie sneekily tok to me after 1030 some more. hee. *scared scared*

Saturday

oh man, it rained kinda heavily. grr~ wen to work as usual. my officer dunno how blur to describe him, he stil dunno my job duties exactly, and worse..he doesnt noe i report to work at 930 on saturdays! (wkdays wld b 830). *faint* after like 2 mths? WOW...lol.

dearie waited for me. we quickly took a cab dwn bk to his plc cos his mum wasnt in gd health condition. settled dearie's laundry b4 we headed to SGH. de service was so damn slow. did de procedures, den waited for de nurse for super duper long! in total, took bout 3 hrs! *faint* dearie's mum was complaining. :/ her gastric made her felt even worse. sigh~ i couldnt do much i guess? =( finally at bout 7, everythg was done. warded, as doctor had to check on her progress. hope its nothing serious. *prays*

dearie and i left for dinner den wen bk to his plc catch a show. afterwhich, we had a drive ard town area. so sad, de shops all close le! supposedly, shoppin was on de plan. hmm, but nvm, another dae den. =) as usual...dearie's tiredness gt hold of him, so tadah, de piggy us wen home! lol..

Sunday

woke up ard 7 to giv dearie morning call. lol. he said he wanna come fetch me instead of me takin a train, so my job was to cor him. lol. our plan was to hav McDonald breakfast togeda, and yup, we had it. yay. *smiles* very yummy yummy. =) we left in de afternoon to Beach Rd to get dearie army stuffs for his upcoming field camp. settled tt, den we wen off to SGH to visit his mum. heard tt de doc couldnt find her vein, and tried takin blood test for like 7times? gosh~ muz hav hurt a lot. stil dunno wads de result. sigh~ dearie's gg for field camp tis Fri, his dad isnt in spore, oh man. :/

dearie's mum gave me de car keys. since no one's using de car, she told me to use it. *stunned* tho ive a license for close to 1yr liao, i haven been driving much! its rusty aldy! omg. dearie made me drive fr SGH all de wae bk to my plc via AYE. it was super scary can. dearie gt kinda irritated by me. =( cos i tink i was screaming. lol. cant blame me mah, im stil considered a new driver. lol. after tt drive.. i din exactly wanna continue. dearie's mum told me to drive to work, more convenient etc, but mm, looks like i nid a tad more time. stil nt v familiar wif de routes n stuff. dun wanna to kp getting horn. it makes me lagi more nervous n tense.

so now de car's parked at his plc. i hope i din displeased dearie's mum, cos dearie was a lil disappointed. sigh~ im meant to sit at de passenger seat, nt de driver's seat! heh. *excuses* dearie cheered me up, wif de help of McFlurry ice cream. hee. i din noe King Albert Park Mac had drive-thru! =) anyway anyone has job lobangs (part time) pls lemme noe! dearie's fren lookin for jobs, thanks!

we had a quick dinner, den headed to Pasir Ris le. =( usually de train joruney wld b so long, but today's one was ultra fast. sob. i teared in de car, and on de train. dearie gt affected by me, he forbidded me to sent him off at Pasir Ris for fear, he wld cry too. *hugs* he made me alight at Paya Lebar. *boo boo* god was fair, de nex train took 7 mins. hee, better than de usual 2-3 mins ya? 7 mins were precious to us. hope de days pass faster. afterwhich, it shld b much more stable le. =) field camp = no hp = no calls = quiet nites. aww, sob! *cries* i feel as if its a mental torture to both of us. =( dearie hates to see de back view of me walkin away fr him.. im nt walkin away dearie..nv wld i walk away fr u. we're each finding our paths tt leads to our future. now tt ive found it, im walkin fwd.. searchin for waes to lead a better future wif u, my baby.

i wun cry. i promise u. its a silent promise i made. but can i cry wen i c u 2 wks ltr? den u'll b ard to wipe my tears away? love u dear. *missing u de moment i left*

my weekend!!

2005-07-10T22:49:00.000-07:00

i wanted to stop blogging. feelin pretty dwn these daes. shits do happen. sigh~ but i changed my mind.. partly cos, dearie's wae of noeing wad ive been doin, is to read tis. =) *smiles* so yup, he's de main reason. =)

wkdaes as usual workin de shit job. doin shit stuffs for pple. Tuesday was one of de hell daes. 700 cheques for posting. double de usual. *faint* and my supervisor stared at me, askin if i did it all myself. =( do i hav a choice? everyone's so busy..gt ppl can help me mah? *sob* den i was also told to choose dates to clear leave. we're given 6 daes, and ive to clear 3 daes at least by Aug. so sian can. i cant make up my mind for de dates man. worse, most dates r taken lo. argh.

im also undecided between quiting or not to quit. many stuff to consider and i dun wish to make a wrong decision. pretty happy n satisfied tt ive joanne as lunch companion now, and also a chitchat buddy. hee. nice gal wif a swt smile. and can i sae..we both dislike de same person? LOL! feels gr8 to b able to find someone like her, tts y im holding bk if i shld actually quit. wad if i find another job..den de ppl also not tt friendly? theres a risk, n im scared. :/ pay here is of cuz pathetic, needless to sae. sigh..dearie saes, in life, i cant hav wad i always wan. true, i noe. everyone jus wans de best for themselves rite? he saes i gotta choose which r de more impt factors im lookin for, as in nice ppl? or good pay? sigh sigh..

my office has a new officer recently. a grad fr SIM. so sian mu can, so young officer le, pay so much better wor! *envious*

last wk pass pretty fast, as compared to de past few ones. its de wkend in de blink of eye. and now? wkend's gone in few hrs! sob!

Saturday, was late for work!! grr~so sian! heng work wen smoothly. :) Joanna brought her cute bunnie to work (to be deposited at her bf plc after tt) n it jus reminded me of de 2 bunnies i had last time! animals r so innocent yea? not so complicated like human beings yea? was Belle's off day..and also de biatch's one.. tts y de work wen so smooth! haha. *evil evil* de whole envt was reali much better lo. i guess Joanne wil agree wif tt? lol. =)

dearie picked me up fr work. along de wae, some shit happen again. sigh~ dunno wad to sae man. hope nth of tt sort happen again! scared de hell outta me! *frighten* had de yummy yummy nasi lemak his mum bought, den we left to watch Initial D @ Lot 1. pretty nice movie i wld sae! *smiles*

headed to Bugis after tt for dinner @ Pastamania. yum-yum! so long since we had tt! hee. had a short walk ard Bugis..saw tis shoe, stil kiv-ing. sigh~ tryin to save money le. esp wen tis jobs pays so pathetic. sigh!

Sunday, i woke up kinda early. din slp well de prev nite. i had flu+cough and it seem to hav gotten worse. fever started n i felt kinda scared, dun wan it to b like de prev time whr my fever wen up to 39 deg. i dun wan to b accused of takin so many MCs by my colleagues! so im stil gonna go work tml even im feelin pretty sick rite now.

got MacDonalds breakfast for dearie - he's sick too! gosh~ *hugs hugs* he look so sickly, my heart ache. i cant do much but hope he gets well soon. sigh~

stayed at his plc watchin tv. Sunday always gimme a she-bu-de feelin. de time passes so fast. *sad* dearie was so sick. let him rest at home (tho i v much wanted to go out) and recover. tis pig..only woke up at2+. -.-" *heartpain* guess both of us werent feelin physically well. my body felt so hot, tt i was so uncomfortable. grr~

dearie woke up feelin so blurish. lol. waited for him to polish his boots+packed his stuff, den we left for our lunch cum dinner! stomachs growlin lo. hee. gt to PS ard 5 n filled our stomachs @ Mos Burger. tried de Unagi Rice Burger, din noe it tasted so yummy! hee. was in a pretty gd mood. prolly cos dearie said cold jokes to me. muahahah~ den he was wearin his uniform.. i noe we cant hold hands, but sometimes i unsconsciously touches his hand, den he'll go like :'eh cannot cannot!!" and stare at me! i wld get a shock!cos i forgot bout it..lol.. haha...

wen to Carrefour nex to buy his stuffs. cant imagine, he bought 4 mops for his company! *faint* wonder y all these stuffs he volunteer to do..hmm..

drove ard after tt cos thr wasnt much time to shop too. saw an accident along River Valley. so scary~ de front of de car was like smashed badly? lucky thg, no one was injured. de driver looked pretty young. hmm. so dangerous nowadays.

last wk, dearie said he wanted me to acc him to Pasir Ris den bid gdbye, den today, he changed his mind. =( he felt it was stil better for him to send me hm first. sob. meaning, lesser time tgt. boo. lol. every sunday hav to hav de she-bu-de feelin. sob. missed him so much, n within 2 daes, we've to part again. *cries* i can only look forward to de nex wkend. hope he really really gets well soon. *tight hug*

workin tml again. *oh man* hope time passes fast again. heh heh. ha, jus sth so coincidental.. was tokin to Joanne on msn, bitching bout work+ppl, den we exchanged bloggie add, and tadah! - we're using de same blogskin! LOL!! n sth tt she found out.. our bf's names start wif W, and ours starts wif J! wooh~ she said "jac, i really wanna laugh out loud!" haha, tt time i was aldy laughing! LOL! its too too coincidental! *laugh laugh laugh*

dearie jus called. so happy to hear fr him again! hee. was tokin halfway, den my bro jus picked up n sae he wanna use. ?!!??? grr~ dearie nv fails to cheer me up. hee. :p even wen he's sick. *sayang* i love u dear! *muack*

my weekend =)

2005-07-03T20:45:00.000-07:00

wkend's soon gonna b over, n de monday blues will fall in again.

enjoyed my wkend v much tho. wasnt able to slp well on Fri nite. woke up Sat morn, packed my bag n headed to Pasir Ris to mit dearie. tis pig, he ordered me to buy him a Ice Mocha + Squid Head b4 i met him. lol. but erh, i was late. for few mins la. he reached thr like 1 min earlier than me? lol. end up, de Coffee Bean was taken over by Yakun liao, so no Ice Mocha for him. lol. i had a hard time findin him lo, cos everyone was like wearin green? gosh~

met dearie's mum hu drove here to pick us up. *sweet* drove back to dearie's plc to let him settle his stuffs. took a short nap at his plc, den we headed to West Mall for movie. - Mr & Mrs Smith. yes, i noe im outdated. lol. but at least i catch de show yea? *smiles* we were a lil late, but de show's stil good. i prefer A Lot Like Love tho. *thumbs up* nex wk will be Initial D! was ard 6 after de show ended..den we took a slow drive to dearie's aunt's plc for housewarming. its at de condo beside Parkway - Cote Dazur! wooh~ ive been admiring tt condo everytime dearie drives pass thr.

saw many of dearie's relatives, so paiseh eh. some seen b4, some first time seeing dem. =) basically wad happen thr was.. watchin tv+ chit chatting + mahjong-ing ... afterwhich, i left wif dearie's cousins to Parkway's Mac for supper. dearie stayed to played mahjong. :p surprisingly de Mac was quite crowded eh. mm. sat thr for few hrs..gossiping..lol.. as usual, 5 gals wad can we do? muahha.... de 2 small gals were pretty cute too. like sisters lidat. hee. :p heh..den took some fotos at Mac, as well as at de condo. geez. pretty funny, cos many ppl were like starin at us. lol. den 4 guys were like upstairs giggling, n we cld hear it! gosh~ but we din care a bit..wahaha..jus continued snapping...hehe.

wen bk close to midnite cos everyone was leaving le. dearie looked v tired. *sayang* sent Candice n mum home, den wen to had small supper. dearie was a tad hungry so we shared a bowl of Ba Chor Mee near his plc, which taste reali yummy! delicious!

wen bk to his plc after tt. bathed, n de moment i reached de bed, i felt like in dreamland. wahahah~ i was dead tired too. *old old old* dearie n i slept soon after. felt reali happy to b able to slp by dearie's side, n to wake up n see him by my side too. *heartwarming* i feel blessed. =)

Sunday, we only woke up ard 10+ i tink. saw de note dearie's mum left for us. tho its jus a 'good morning' msg, it made me smile tho. hee. mother's love is always wei da? geez. lazed ard at home, dearie packed his stuffs n watched his cartoons. *faint* cant imagine we were fighting over de tv! he wanted Kids Central, while i wanted U Channel. *ah bish* oh cuz i was soooo good, i gave in lor (right dearie? lol..). he switched to Kids Central, den i tink dey were showin some Cinderella cartoon, den he swucthed bk to U Channel, claiming tt he wans to b de gd guy! faint!-.-"

we left for lunch ard 1pm. Long John @ Lot 1. heh. fast food again?! sob..fat is my fate! ahh!

=( dearie had to buy some army stuff for himself + frens, so dropped by Beach Rd again. guess whr we wen nex? oops, we wen to dearie's aunt's condo again! *grin* guess we're v much in love wif tt plc! took some pics there! hee.

din had much time after tt, but we tried to squeeze some time to Kuan Yin Miao. traffic was bad, so dearie alighted me first. dad's gonna go for some checkup tml. some testtube has to b put thru into his body to see if there's anythg wrong or sth. kinda worried, so yup, wen to pray. i noe v last minute, n i only go to de temple wen i nid help, sigh, but better than nv rite? hope everythg goes well. =)

got home ard 5, den i realise i left my specs at dearie's hse! oops. 1 wk wifout specs liao. geez. :p

watchin de nkf show now. altho nkf has always been like advertising, askin for donations n many more donations, their show stil does inspire me. it serve as a reminder to us tt we shld b contented wif wad we hav rite now, a healthy body tat is.

yes, tho ive always been grumbling bout how fat i look, bout how much i grow, i noe how much better off i am, as compared to others hu are suffering, b it wad sickness.

life is really short. no time for complains, for being angry wif others etc. i guess we shld all treasure our life v much n b happy wif wad we hav yea. impt thg is to live life happily yah?

tk care peeps! pics up soon! nid to figure out how to use photoshop. shesh, im a computer idiot~ :/

have a gr8 upcoming week! *smiles*

double sigh~~

2005-07-01T21:10:00.000-07:00

Monday-Friday

work has been hell. gettin worse each day. tuesday, came a new gal, who's pretty nice n friendly. definitely better than de rest. i requested fr my officer to hav a change in lunch timing fr 1130 to 1200, so tt i hav company during lunch. its so saddening to eat alone for like 1 mth lo. *sob* felt pretty pleased wen my officer had no objections to it, as long as i can finish my stuff on time, wun interfere wif my work, den he's oki wif it. =)

tried to look at de positive side, but i cant lie to myself. i reali dun like tis place.. everyday, i force myself to de office, as if "coming for de sake of coming" attitude. back den, my other jobs, it wasnt lidat. at IRAS, i wake up early feelin happy tt i'll b seeing all my colleagues, n not feelin grumpy. i come early wif viv sometimes, to hav BK breakfast first, our officer will smile at us, n thr is no strong barrier at all.

During attachment, tho some ppl werent tt friendly, i wen to work wif enjoyment, cos i see ppl smiling at me, we greet each other gd morning, in short, everyone was jus so happy to see each other. it defnitely make a difference in de whole workin envt. my current workplc, i dun c all those tt i mention at all. i dun exactly look forward to work at all. de only better ppl i can tink of is Belle.

sad to sae, my co has tis ger (P), she's so tehh! she talks to de supervisor like she has greater authority than him, giv him no face, toks loudly, demand things fr him etc. wen he send her for course, she grumbles, saying tt she dun wan to b alone. (hello? does she noe tt ive been lunchin alone for a whole mth? now she only has to b alone for 1 dae n she's makin a big fuss over it?! wtf!) den she teh-teh wif him, treats him to bubble tea (!!), toks in a very teh-way.. hopin tt he'll xin luan n makes things better for her. bullshit! bullshit!!

de wae she toks affects my concentration! cos her voice is like..is like..u noe those bitchy voices? omg?! cant she jolly well sit dwn n jus do her work?!small little things den she not happy, complain here n thr, like machiam princess! OMG! den she tries to seduce ppl wif her she-thinks-she's-so-hot body! if she has a better personality, toks in a nicer wae, i wld definitely sae she's quite a pretty gal. but her attitude totally turn me off. gawd! wen she stands, she wil place her elbow on de table, den sticks her butt outwards! aww, disgusting can! *eeekkkksss*

tt Tuesday wen de new gal+2 other frens+me wen out for lunch togeda, tt bitch galred at me n said "happy huh? now got ppl acc u eat lunch hur?". n de tone of her voice, was like so sarcastic can! i couldnt b bothered, i jus ignored her! tho i was quite sad. sigh. came bk at 1pm, i saw Belle at de lift n casually jus ask her "how come u go for lunch so late?"(hers is 1230). alrite, apparently she said thr was no one at the bitch's desk, so dey waited for ppl to come bk b4 dey left for lunch. as Belle said tt, tt bitch gave me a stare, a long one indeed. for wad de fuck? b4 she left, she stared at me again. for goodness sake, no one at de desk has nth to do wif me leh. its not as if i came bk late n she had to delay her lunch or wad. damn it. simply spoil my day. sigh~

Wednesday, felt kinda relieved finally, cos i thought my efforts finally paid off. ya, its "thought". 2 of my officers praise me for being efficient. dey said de speed of my work surprised dem. of cuz i was happy, i told dearie n i believed he was happy too. :p i finished my work b4 de cutoff time, n most of de cheques cleared pretty fast. wifout de team's help, i wouldnt hav finish so fast too. =)

Thursday was like other normal daes. sian, but de tout tt de nex day is Friday made me a lil happier lah. wad to do? tts life mah. :/ cheques were quite a lot (cos its de mth end) n my officers gt a shock wen dey saw de total amt of cheques i handled. tis time, its by myself. de amt is not those "woah..so impressive kinda thg" but, jus a better-than-average standard. im satisfied wif myself. *pleased*

come Friday, i was superbly sian in de afternoon. cos of de change in de attitude of de officers. i did my work as usual. de officers seemed to b busy wif other stuffs, so i jus occupied myself my duties. apparently, dey were caught up wif other stuffs, so ended up havin lesser time to check de cheques wif extra extra attention. wad happen? any mistakes in de cheques,i got de blame. wth!! i was super angry can. bloody hell. i hate it. praise can make an employee happy, but it is not a must. jus dun anyhow push de blame to me wen i hav nth to do wif de fault! argh! i cld see tt dey were busy, so i asked other officers to "overwrite" some cheques for me (dey hav to authorised it b4 i can proceed). i was aldy tryin to giv dem less work. sigh~

practically everyday, i hav no time for any breaks at all. except for lunch. i see ppl takin small breaks on n off. eating tidbits..etc.. but i dun hav time for all these. hav been tellin dearie tt even like gg to de toilet, i also dun hav any time! tts how busy it is! *cries* i am fine wif havin no breaks, i jus hate to b yuan wang. i hav done all my job duties, y de hell am i stil treated lidat. bloody shit. *angry* ppl can gossip..can walk here walk there.. me? i face de com continuously for 5 hrs! i feel as if my eyesight is gettin bad le. sigh. im like havin constant back aches now. wen i slp, i can only slp on my right side. if i turn, my back hurts badly. sigh!

ive been calculating de number of daes..til de dae i can sae "bye bye". soon soon.. i hope. *depressed* as a contract staff, ive only been late once (for 5 mins), i go back either at 530 (which is v rare), or after 530. n needless to sae..i tink i only manage to hav 4 toilet breaks? (yes, i can count. its so few times tt i can rem) of cuz, there'll b ppl i miss. my 2 officers r quite ok (most of de time), ive nice colleague like Belle & June. n a friendly secretary hu often ask how i'm doin.. whether i understand de job duties etc. tts all. de rest.. none of my concern.

on a lighter note, im feelin happy for Belle! she has found her prince charming! hehe. few daes back, he wen all de wae to Hilton jus to ger her her fav flowers, white lilies!! so pretty!! *HINT HINT* oops, hint a lil too big? heehee..

and i jus heard, one of my fren is gettin married! wa lau, so fast can. anyway, hope dey hav a blissful one. =) *smiles*

work has been torturin me. it tires me a lot. my heart wans to go out, but my body is aching like mad. de moment i reach home, i feel super tired n jus wanna slp. wifout knowin it, its de nex dae n time for work le. yea, my life routines tt way. so sad rite? sigh. times wif my family wld jus b at nite, and morning breakfast during de wkends. wif my so damn pathetic pay, i cant help out much in de family expenses, except jus to giv some $$ to my parents. im stil saving up for their Korea trip in Sep. i wonder if i can survive til den..sigh~

its July again. 1 more mth to National Day.. 5 more mths to Xmas? hee. u noe, wen u start workin.. all u look forward to is jus public holidays lo! isnt it not? gee.

dearie, thanks for coming so far togeda wif me. many long roads for us to go thru. we'll b able to do it ya? im thankful tt despite my horrible work, ive dearie by my side, supportin me mentally, cheerin me up etc. even de small cold jokes, puts a smile to my face. =) thanks for tolerating my temper, my nonsense etc.

recalling back de times wen we were stil frens, den to close frens, den to msn-conversationlist (rem tis word?), den to a certified couple (lol). de stuff we tok bout, be it gossips, or bout our life.. it was a stepping stone to wad we r now. and im glad i found u. my fren. my soulmate. my dear.

thanks for coming into my life. i hope we'll b able to stay togeda thru thick and thin. *hugs hugs*

dearie's first bookout

2005-06-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

Thursday

dinner @ home. catered food was a tad better. mm. work was shit stil. (how many times hav i said tis..?)

mum n sis wen for another of my cousin's ROM in de afternoon.

Friday

tho its stil a workin dae, i was definitely happier, cos heh dearie's bookin out todae! hee. so excited neh. geez. in de office, i jus wished time wld pass super fast. :p finally, after work, i wen dwn to Bugis. meetin dearie at 7, so thr was quite some time for me. took de train dwn to Bugis, wanted to get a shirt for dearie, but couldnt find any nice ones. =( heh. tinkin dearie muz b missing his yummy-licious food, i bought him his Yakitori Eel + TakoPachi (w/extra sauce!). hehe. den i slowly took my time n headed to Pasir Ris. wow, saw many recruits at Whitesands. bet dey muz hav booked out v much earlier. lucky dem! Whitesands's jus another shoppin centre in Sg..i seldom go thr tho its in de East. guess i'll only b thr during chalet periods. lol.

last yr's class chalet in dec (i tink), i wen in de morn to help dem check in, afternoon was sorta workin (givin out flyers) wif wynn. ended up, wynn had to "disappear himself" to settle some personal stuffs. i was left alone. =( so i tried my luck, msg dearie (hu was at de chalet) tellin him wad happen (we were stil frens bk den). glad, he offered to come out (of de chalet) n accompany me! heh heh.. met him at Whitesands Coffeebean n we slack+tok cok. hee. even as frens, we had much to tok. =)

*ok back to wad i was saying* i got to Whitesands early, so wen shoppin at NTUC. lol. gg to hav dinner at dearie's plc, so bought some fruits bk. *smiles* finally saw my dearie ard 725! hee. he shouted so loudly "dear" at de stn, so paiseh. :p quickly took a cab bk to his plc. in de cab..he told me stories bout his camp etc. hee, nice to hear dem. =) glad he's doin fine there. seriously speakin, he seem to b enjoyin it! lol, reali!*relieved*

reached his plc ard 8. his mum gave him a surprise. gee. his rm was newly painted. furnitures moved. den a new rm was created. like brand new! of cuz, coated wif new layer of paint. plus extra furnitures! de sofa + tv..! so damn nice! de rm looks reali spacious now! n cleaner! hee. *thumbs up*

dinner was yummy too. *drools* had dearie's fav san cheng rou, pigeon egg, fried omelette, soup+vege+fish, prawns, sotong, yummy! heh..dearie told his mum to cook de sotong+prawns specially for me. *grin* den wen i gt thr, dearie's mum said i sounded like i had a sore throat, ask me nt to eat those (cos it was cooked wif chilli). =( *sob* but i stil ate! hee.... dearie's voice was worse. almost close to no voice eh. *sayang* forced to drink de liang cha! hehe...

stayed at dearie's plc til bout 10 b4 we left to catch a movie. wah lau, Initial D, A Lot Like Love & Mr and Mrs Smith all selling fast lo. sian 1/2. wen to a few cinemas to check out, timing werent tt gd, or tix were gonna sold out, so din manage to catch a show. nevertheless, did enjoyed each other's company. =)

Saturday

had breakfast wif my parents as usual. dey seemed more excited than me regarding dearie's bookout. lol. breakfast was tim sum, cos i'd craving for it. hee. work was u-noe-la? ha. dearie picked me up fr work, den we headed to Beach Rd to settle dearie's army stuffs thingy. quite fun leh, shop for army stuffs! hehe.. :p

drove to PS after tt. sian! Initial D rix sold out! argh.. so we advanced book tix for "A Lot Like Love" @ Marina Square in de evening. had lunch at Long John Silver - a plc dearie n i hav not been for damn long! dearie was craving for fast food..lol! we wen shoppin at Carrefour nex! hee. dearie bought so much stuffs wor. after tt, while he was in de toilet, i was walkin ard, saw tis new restaurant at B2 opp de information centre, i was tinkin "heh can bring my parents here to eat, looks quite good." den i was wonderin if i wld bump into my parents here cos dey come here quite often (other than Bugis n Parkway..lol). wanted to c some watches (watch shop beside de restaurant)..den omg, i saw my parents!! aww~ its kinda scary! cos its like jus 1 sec ago, i jus wondered if i wld see dem! oh my~ den my father told me tt he told my mum tt mayb dey wld see me here. gosh~ dearie was also surprise tt we met. hee.

headed to Marina Square after tt. so sway~ thr were rehersals for de NDP, den so many rd kena block! argh. we took like 1 and 1/2 hrs jus to get to MS fr PS! grr~ MS is v confusing now. so many shops. so big. so many connections. omg. we gt lost thr can. sheesh. anyway, de show's good! go watch! marvellous! nice love movie eh! funny too! hee. wanted to watch Initial D after tt, but no gd timing le. sobs.

we wen to Rui Chun for tim sum dinner after movie. dearie was kinda tired liao. (at 11+!) lol. no more late nites. =( he's too used to wakin up at 5, n slpin by 1030. lol.

Sunday

my baobei woke up at 10+. WOW. tts a big WOW. muahahah... its not so him! lol.... his mum told me to come over if we've no plans in mind, so yup, i headed dwn. bought him lunch. at Lot 1.. i was stunned by de number of fast food outlets. lol. i tink i did him wrong. i gt so many fast food for him. lol. wen to Long John, to get de coleslaw which he lurve so much (lol), de KFC's cheesyyy fries, n Mac's nugget meal. wahahah~ so yummy yummy! lol.

watched tv n slept at his plc de whole afternoon. beginning to feel even more pig. lol. we gt up ard 3 i tink. pack his stuffs. tok a little. hear more stories n cold jokes. lol. n bout tis China guy fr his platoon, hu is so so honest (for certain things)! lol.. den we took some pics..

we decided to skip watchin Initial D n jus slack at hm. will watched it nex wk end! left for Bugis ard 430. dinner at V8. hee. dearie's fav - chicken cutlet. lol. i tink he needs more training liao. lol.. took a np wif his uniform! hee...

he sent me home, n den left to mit his frens. =) will look forward to seeing u on saturday dearie. *smiles* oh yea, dearie's aunt's having a hse warming (apparently, i tink her condo is de one beside Parkway, de very very nice condo tt we always pass by! called "Costa sth..") yea, i can see it nex wk! hehe.... *happie* wil prolly bring a set of clothes standby at his plc nex saturday. hee. dearie sae his mum said i can stay over if i wan to! hee. *great*

gt an interview tml..tk care peeps! =)

perfect wedding!

2005-06-21T20:29:00.000-07:00

been feelin kinda tired to update these daes. not much of a major event, except for my cousin's wedding.

Friday

wen home after work. too tired to go out. =(

Saturday

had tim sum breakfast wif my parents.yum yum. hee. love tim sum! esp de har gao! hee. :p wen to work after tt. yea, managed to finish my stuff by 1pm. *smiles* left office ard 115..but too bad.. i'll b alone for a few hrs. =( mum had facial at 2, so only met her ard 330. walked ard at PS. was on de search for accessories for de wedding. dad came ltr cos my aunt came to our plc last minute, to use de pool. =)

gt myself 2 necklaces fr Chomel, mum gt a earring. shopped for a lil while, den headed to Raffles City. mum wanted to find a blouse tt can match wif her just-bought-skirt but din find nice ones. mm. come evening, we walked dwn to Bugis and had our dinner @ Fish & Co. delicious! hee. parents shared de Seafood Platter for 2, while i had de Terriyaki Salmon - dearie's fav! gee.

took pics of my parents:

Sunday

had to wake up ard 5+ in preparation for my cousin's wedding (had to b at her plc b4 7am). din exactly slp much de dae b4. kinda excited i guess. hee. not my wedding also hor? hehe..

had some time after preparing, so i took some pics. hee. my short hair:

upon reaching my cousin's place at Hougang..:

their family:

the groom(oso my cousin..lol):

b4 he can see de bride...some sabotage gg on..lol.. firstly, he was forced to eat a sandwich, contaning bittergourd! buahaha...:

den dey had to dance (dey decided to dance de William Hung dance..lol):

half way there...but de game's not ended!

he had to relate to us, de very first time he called de bride for a date..hee:

next..answer some riddles! lol..:

den, answer tough maths question!

den finally, he had to sae mushy stuffs to de bride! hee. i tout it wld b jus some short "i love u" kinda msg..but ha.. he actually said stuff bout how dey met etc. made me super duper envious! i wonder if mine wil last tt long? *ponders*

alrite, ok, all pass!! hehe...*knock kncock* de groom sees de bride!

*muack muack*

the happy family:

my cutie little cousin:

their new house at Jalan Tiga (near Old Airport Rd):

the newly weds in de car:

the new family:

after finishing de visits to de respective places for prayers, all de bridesmaid followed wif dem for outdoor shooting near their hotel, Grand Copthorne. de heat was unbearable man. grr. funny thg was, wen de bride had to throw de flowers behind, first time, it landed too near her, no one reached ir. lol. 2nd time, it flew over us...right into de bushes!! *faint* wen to dig it out, den 3rd time, my cousin's sis jus wen to get it. lol. my family had buffet lunch at their plc, den gt home ard 2. took a nap, was reali tired.

we den left ard 630 for de wedding dinner. welcoming de bride's arrival:

both sides of de family:

the couple:

cheers to dem!!

may dey hav a happy & blissful marriage! din post all de pics, jus set up a link on de left side of de blog. most of de pics (inclusive of past pics) hav been uploaded. feel free to view ya? *smiles* by de time i gt home, it was aldy midnite. waited for de cab for pretty long. nono, its VERy long. lol. dearie called in de midst of de dinner tho his fone was 'dying' liao (thanks dear..). was tellin dearie how beautiful de wedding was. reali, everythg was so purrfect. =) how envious i am. :p den he msged me: "our wedding will b even more touching rite? cos im de one beside u hor hor?" im like...hmm, i tout all weddings, de groom (i almost typed 'broom'! lol!!) n de bride are togeda de? *question marks in my head*

Monday & Tuesday

tis work plc envt is not suited for me. argh! grr~ ppl r so cold..so unfriendly.. sigh~ can sae, its de worst work envt ive ever experienced. definitely worse than my itp. sob. =( my itp was bad enuff, i was de only one attached thr fr SP somemore. sigh sigh~ another of my colleague told me tt she's on de lookout for new jobs le. she said if she can find a better one, she dun even mind paying de fine! (she's on contract too, n she's here later than me!) oh my..i dun wish to pay de fine at all. so ive gotta ren...sob! =( she's been gg for interviews after work. but well, she's much better la, gt like 10 yrs exp in a bank le, so perhaps banks wil b willing to wait for her, even if its 1-2 mths. sigh.. no solution for me. *cries*

wen home for dinner cos mum wanted us to try out de food she decided to cater. fr some restaurant recommended by her fren. hmm, nt v nice tho. :/

de 108 msgs! =)

2005-06-16T22:30:00.000-07:00

i tink i shld reali thank god for havin to giv me such a wonderful wk. tis oast wk has been gg on pretty well. work is much better than those daes whr i was complaining etc. i seldom ot now, n my colleagues joke more now. lol. at least it makes de work not so bored ya? plsu, in de morn, i hav sucha nice colleague hu always tok to me! lol.

sob, but she's gonna b on 1 wk leave nex wk. kinda sad. time wil pass much slower hur. today, i was so tempting her by tokin bout gg on hols..etc.. lol. life's much happier wen u hav sth to look forward to..like xmas? i noe stil a bit far la.. but its an occasion i always love. hee. lookin forward definitely =) also glad tt i hav lunch companion tis 2 daes. ro came dwn today again! thanks so muchie!! =) tml's finally friday. hee. *grin*

hmm, my fren's been tellin me how gr8 de movie Mr and Mrs Smith is! i so wanna watch it wif dearie! tts a movie we've been waiting for! quick come back baby! gee.

was stone-ing on de train on de wae bk jus nw..den i decided to tk out my fone n read de msgs dearie sent me..so coincidentally... my inbox had 108 msgs, n today's de 108th dae togeda! gee. so qiao eh! time to del old msg to giv de new ones some space, so for memory sake, i decided to penned it dwn here. dear, thanks for all de msgs, be it sad or happy! *hugs*

"tk care wherever u go..wadever u do..i pray tt happiness will always b wif u! gd nite!" - 25 oct 04 23.46 [ yes, tis was a fwd msg dearie send me n i stil haf it in my fone! gee. i waited quite long huh? oops. lol]

"Ok lo. Make it known abt you and me lo. Actually your condo quite nice wor. Eh i never say i wan your condo this time. Haha..." - 27 feb 2.14 [ msgin dearie after he sent me home fr C.A.N cafe - our 1st date alone as frens]

"*grin@@@@n* heh heh.. U huh... Good la.. I like u being evil... Haha... Eh u can cook one. Pasta lo. I like..." - 27 feb 2.30

"I aint sure if she's evil but i like your kind of evil. haha!so dun match me and her. and i only like your cooking. not her's. thu i havent try and i dun wan to. haha.." - 27 feb 2.35 [ i stil like suaning dearie wif niki..lol]

"its ok la. if she's an angel i only like evils like you. i have no affliation wif her. the end...haha.. you bad bad de.. suan me this whole time!" - 27 feb 2.40

"yeah i can see you r enjoying this..im good to ya so let u have this moment of happiness..haha .. eh as i said, i only like your evilness, u dun hint so much man. sian..Man U drawing. sigh.." - 27 feb 2.47 [ dearie stayed over at chan howe's plc watchin de Man U match + msging me, multi task eh!]

"goodnite my angel. thanks for the chance to care for u and love u. i'll make de best out of our r/s.. take it nice and slow i will.. slp well =) *hugs hugs*" - 02 mar 2.49

"no la dun apologise..i'm really happy to see u home. it aint an obligation. its an enjoyment :)" - 02 mar 17.52 [ felt kinda bad tt he'd to travel so far. he sent me home after some law talk we had in sch. also de dae whr many of our frens knew bout us! oops.]

"i'll admit brid one is my fault. but im certain on my feelings for u now. wp gave up on me. so i wun give up unless u give up on me. i know now its all words no action. give me some time to prove myelf wor.." - 02 mar 18.22 [ time waits for no man..]

"your heart wun hurt...cos u've gt 2 hearts now..it'll stay that way.." - 03 mar 16.19 [ confirm chop guarantee it'll stay tis wae? hee.]

"there wun b a reason for u to let my heart fly. no way.. if the heart flies, both will come with me. haha either way, mine is yours, yours is mine. heh heh" - 03 mar 16.23

"hey! haha..it wun break.. i will not let it break wor.. tai ai ni le.. dun shivers..ahha" - 03 mar 16.27

"feelings strong..trust me wor.. give us time :) give me time to prove also." - 03 mar 16.33

"*hugs* its ok dear, im really happy to be wif u. miss hugging u now. i love u dear.. sugar dreams.. muacks.. :)" - 04 mar 2.48 [ sugar dreams aka sweet dreams! hee.]

"dear, dun so negative..no matter wad im always beside u..i hope u'll b wif me too.." - 04 mar 2.51

"okok..if dun have den..jus come sch earlier, heh heh..can see u i happy le..really..i better sae "really" be4 u say "like real"..haha.." - 04 mar 10.02 [ i aint sure if it was a promise tt i made or wad, but i had to buy food for dearie n was lookin high n low for de food he wanted. gt him popiah in de end n i tink nic n wynn shared among themselves? lol...*faint*]

"oi! oi! how can..haha..ok lo. doubt me lo. hmph..haha..eh cannot find nvm wor. dun wan my gal to b so xin ku.." - 04 mar 10.09 [ dearie din wan me to run to so many places jus to buy him lunchie]

"its not a nid wor..u smile i smile. u eat wifout scared getting fat, i eat wifout scared getting fat also. haha. wilson's logic." - 05 mar 10.56

"lao po da ren. wo dao le..eh can u da bao me into ur bad. den bring me home..haha..best! lol.." - 05 mar 11.06 [ our 1st date during de wkend. was heading towards dhoby ghaut n dearie apparently was earlier than me. normally de start of r/s, de guys wld usually b de early ones, den as time pass, dey wil b de late ones rite? it better dun! muahah...]

"dear im more than willing to spend time wif u. spend de whole eternity wif u if i can. i reali am takin our r/s seriously. wen i saw u shed tears, my heart hurt..i dun wish to see u in tears except for happiness..*hugs* i miss u lots too gal..u hav a gd rest..i jus gt home..:) muacks!" - 06 mar 6.05 { dearie jus called!!}

"to my sweetest panda, u hav not bore me a single bit..i myself am falling very deeply for u. i'll hold ur hand for eternity and beyond wor. *cuddles* wif de tout of u each day, keeps me smiling brighter too. muacks..miss u dear.." - 07 mar 3.59 [ i dunno y he called me a panda..lol..]

"things will turn out good..i'll make sure of it dear..i see a marvellous future tgt..wif us havin de same touts..wil hold ur hand in a few hrs time. for now, have a gd rest n slp tite while i go dream abt u. wan an baby.." - 07 mar 04.05

"*piggy wriggles ard and shouts*'no dear!' haha..muack.." - 07 mar 12.22 [ i was msging him during lecture (in case u'r wonderin, we dun always sit togeda during lec) n i tink i mention sth like wanting to tickle him...n tis was his reply..lol.]

"dear im home le..see u online if u aint slpin soon..u teared again today. i feel sad. ive nt done enuf..i wil try harder to make u happy always.." - 08 mar 1.24

"yes dear..i realli love u..im feelin very troubled inside cos im fearful of losing u.." - 08 mar 1.51 [ u wun lose me if u promise nt to leave me behind! hee]

"dear at such a late hr, hope u r at least havin some rest. i know ur troubled. im sorry..its all my fault tt u r feelin like tis. i shld hav been a better bf..pls giv me a chance.." - 08 mar 6.33 [ yes, we were both not slpin due to some issues, even at 6am!]

"our happy times wun end. i dun wan us to end. my feelings r true.." - 08 mar 8.10 [our love wil hav no ending dearie!]

"i had de whole nite to tink. nothing came into my mind except to b wif u. i'll giv u time to tink. but my mind is set. i love u.." - 08 mar 8.25 [dearie was at my condo de whole nite. i din noe he drove here jus to make sure i was ok. *hugs*]

"ive tout abt things b4 we were tgt and now tt we're tgt..i jus wan to make u happy.." - 08 mar 8.39

"it stil stands. im only happy if u are. and i hope ur happy being wif me..thats my commitment to u.." - 08 mar 8.41

"im de one at fault. im reali guilty for makin u hav so much troubles. i wil try my very best to become a better bf for u. dui bu qi.." - 08 mar 8.52 [ its ok baby..everyone makes mistakes dearie..]

"baby..i understand wad u r gg thru. and im willing to do anythg til u feel more secure. i wil wait for de day im totally accepted. sori for causin u to tink so much. i jus gt home. gg to slp for a while. dear gt time wake me up at one k." - 08 mar 11.14 [ i was in de sch com lab doin my report.. dearie finished his, so he had de chance to go bk n slp! *pig*]

"nope. i makan alone. finish le faster go home do ttp. wo yao ting lao po de hua..haha.." - 08 mar 22.49 [ ha...ttp reminds me of nic! lol.. de song tt he invented..wahaha~]

"baby..i hope everythg's been cleared up. i'll giv u all de time in de world to accept me whole heartedly. dun feel sorry or wad k..im fine. tk care of urself ya..rmb..im always here for u..wan an honey.." - 09 mar 1.20

"its mushy but only to u. dear dun sae such things..it wil only break my heart..we'll go thru everythg tgt.." - 09 mar 1.27 [ yes sir!!]

"dear im takin a nap first...let me sae gdnite to u first. wan an baby..jus wanna tel u, im always thr for u..ur pillar of strength..*hugs* love u.." - 10 mar 00.56 [ i dun wan pillar.. wall can? lol.]

"the sweetest gal alive deserve a gd guy. im nt exactly one yet but striving to giv u more happiness..rest early k dear.. miss u many many.." - 10 mar 00.59

"wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi, zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni. ni yao xiang xin, xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li, xing fu he kuai le shi jie ju. dear, i noe there's sth wrong, tout tis song wil cheer u up. call me anytime wen u c tis, jus wan to noe if u r alrite..love u.." - 15 mar 00.58 [ will always rem tis song my love!]

"hm..u r my dear..not my bolster..so hugging u feel much more comfortable as u r wif me..hor teh peng hor?" - 17 mar 15.22 [ dearie's de tea (teh), im de ice (peng)! hehe..]

"cos i can wake up to hug u every second i see u ma..*kisses*" - 17 mar 19.56

"dear dear! happy birthday dearie..hope to hav many many more opportunities to wish u wor..i love u lots dear.. miss u wor..*hug hug* muack! muack!" - 18 mar 00.00 [ so zhun! dearie's msg reali came in at midnite! gee.]

"haha..eh..i shant comment. *grin* im only for u..no other ppl..wahah.." - 19 mar 1.14 [ u belong to ur parents too dearie! hee, share share? - our common phrase! hee.]

"its ok de. giv n take rite? nex time i headache den u can ti liang me ma. tis is a small matter. tk care of urself n we both remain healthy. den can hav more late nighte tgt.." - 20 mar 5.57 [ ha.. was so paiseh. nt long tgt only den i doze off in his car liao. :p we were at my plc tokin.. i was like tryin to kp myself awake, i tink i zonked out dunno wad time.. only gt up at 5+am den wen home! *grin*]

"im sorry for all these.. i do not feel zi bei abt it. it aint botherin me. sorry to make u cry again, it hurts me to see u disappointed. things hasnt been smooth on my side n i nid some time to mature thru it. tis prob wun b brought up again. i promise.." - 21 mar 21.25 [ dearie brought up some money issue tt made both of us upset. =(]

"dear im very happy u open ur heart to me n accepted me for hu i am. im always faithful to de one i love. u wil b my only love for tis life time, and future ones if god permits..i love u dearie.. i'll stop being so silly le..see u soon baby..wan an.. nth wil come between us..i promise.. muack muack.." - 25 mar 4.20

" okok..dearie..slp tite..i wun let ur happy smiles fade..*hugs*.." - 25 mar 4.25 [ i also dun wanna b upset! i read tt wen u r sad, it uses up more muscles, den wil hav more wrinkles! hee]

"i sms u tis on de wae to de toilet..jus wanna sae..i love u dearie.." - 26 mar 21.39 [ my bo liao baby! i was gg to my condo's toilet..n he sms-ed me! lol]

"while u r scratching ur hand n tryin to snatch my fone, jus wanna sae i love u lots.." - 26 mar 23.51 [ i kinda guessed tt he was msging me, so tried 'snatching' it cos he claimed tt he's msging other ppl! buahah...]

"well, i was holding ur hand while flying. tink de journey was too comfy den u nv notice u r flyin wif me." - 27 mar 12.09

"haha..i am i am! crazy for u.." - 27 mar 23.02

"i'll always b siao for u dear..promise.." - 27 mar 23.07

"*holds dear's hand* its locked dear.. wun let go of u.." - 27 mar 23.09 [ u musnt let go!!]

"its not only to make u smile dear. jus wan u to noe its true n i wun wanna let u go no matter wad..*hugs* i love u dearest..i jus gt home.." - 27 mar 23.14

"gt price tag one..besides jus holding his hands forever like u aldy did, u hav to hug him tite tite also. wahaha..hor dear hor.." - 28 mar 20.00 [ wahaha...so many conditions hur hur? hee]

"u r speechless..so am i..i dun even noe wad to do..all i noe is i love u but i aint sure wad to do. its a small misunderstanding but now its getting worse. y am i so anxious abt it.. guess u shld noe de answer..im reali sorry..jus hope things r fine tmr.." - 29 mar 1.36

"wo zhen de hen ai ni, wo mei xiang guo yao fang qi ni..wo men de jaing lai hui shi sheng me, wo bu zhi dao, dan wo fei chang de ken ding wo hui yong yuan de ai hu ni, zao gu ni. xiang xin wo shuo de yi qie, wo shi hen ai hen ai ni de." - 29 mar 23.58 [ dearie sent me tis while we were playing online pool! lol]

"wrong..is forever in love wif u..hungry can b solved. my feelins for u cant b solved cos it'll nv end. dun get goosebumps wor. its true de." - 30 mar 11.02

"nope..it stands firm..im not leaving u.." - 30 mar 23.30

"it'll come i promise. hm..it'll tk forever cos i dun wish for it to end. heh heh..ok?" - 31 mar 22.03

"dearest bobosauraus dearie..happy one mth anniversary..i din expect myself to fall so deeply again..i love u wif my heart n soul, no one's gg to tk tt special feelin away fr me. i promise to tk care of u, walk tt aisle wif u. i love u lots dearie..*hug hug* (i set alarm to sms u, seems like u r one step faster than me..) i hope to go on many hols wif u to enjoy ur company..we're an everlasting couple..hor dearie hor.." - 01 april 00.12 [ bobosaurus came abt cos he always called me "bo-bo" as in "stupid".]

"i wun tk dem bk..i wun hav to cos im always siao for u..slpin a lil lesser to mark a memorable dae for us is worth it. muack muack to my bao bei.." - 01 april 00.19

"i hope u do tk into consideration de times we spent. like today i rushed to mit u cos i miss u. jus wanted to let u noe ur company is being appreciated. i wun wan to find another one cos i do love n appreciate u." - 04 april 3.41

"i dun wan to giv u up..if u choose to giv me up, i'll haf to wait for de dae u'll accept me again. cos u nv betrayed me..and my feelins r de strongest for u..its true.." - 04 april 3.47 [ thanks u dearie!!]

"i sweared nv to cry n b strong. i cld not. cos im on de verge of losing u. it hurts so much in my heart tt de only thg i can do is to cry." - 04 april 4.14 [ *hugs hugs*]

"thanks dear. it means a lot to me tt u've committed into tis r/s whole heartedly as i hav commit to u wif all my heart. im reali lucky to hv u as my love..u can kp tis sms too.. =) *big fat kiss and big big hug* muack muack..im off to bed now my bobosaurus.." - 04 april 22.47 [ yes! my chacha saurus!!]

"i love u..if u reali tink we're nt meant for each other, we'll nv b..hav faith n let us b tgt..i nv tout of being a dae wifout u..i cant change wad u tink but i wan to b wif u. de rest is up to u. i tried my best for us to survive..i tried to make u happy. i hope u tk into consideration wad ive done to make u happy n tt i cared." - 12 april 2.45

"im a bit shocked to hear it but my love remains firm. im happy u r honest wif me..i love u as hu u r..i understand now y my presence is needed constantly. i din noe u hav gone thru so much. im sorry dearie. i love u for hu u r..no matter wad history u hav..wo shi ai ni de.." - 13 april 1.30

"to me..clean is being honest wif me..im glad tt u r..i dun nid or wan any other gal except u. as ive said, i love u for hu u r..im nt jus a surface lover. history or no history..i love u..i hope u dun giv up cos im nt givin up.." - 13 april 1.35

"u r not de one at fault. ur ex was a jerk..dun giv me up.. i told u fr de start, im nt like any typical guys u tink..i hav no regrets starting tis love..and im not gg to quit bcos of ur past. i love de present u and de future we'll hold. dear, im not gg to let u go. we'll face things tgt as one love..pls believe me.." - 13 april 1.39 [ yea, we'll face things tgt! =)]

"baby ive nt regretted, ive stayed up all nite jus to hear fr u..i dun wish for an alt route. my feelins r strong..i wan to b wif u.." - 13 april 10.11 [ dearie stayed up all nite at my plc. i met him downstairs on de wae out]

"i wld doze off for half an hr each time..i dun wan to miss any sms fr u.. im ok..dear..i wan to cont tis love." - 13 april 10.14

"if im de gift, u r de ribbon. like de icing on de cake. u complete de whole package. one comes after another, no seperation allowed. heh heh :)" - 19 april 12.23 [ ok! tts a deal! hee!]

"baby..ive told u there's no way im letting u go..as for de 2 reasons, to me there's only one cos i believe n trust u. u'll nv cheat on me..u mean de world to me abby..hope after tis quarrel, u trust me tt anythg i may sae is jus to make our r/s better. n of cuz we're quite lucky abt de mata part. everythg happens for a reason..theres one tt doesnt nid a reason..and its..i love u..no reasons needed.. my hearts wif u.." - 22 april 2.53

"yes yes..dedicated to bobo..and cha cha only.. muack muack..i love u swt heart..i noe u love me too! *smiles* haha i found another rd block..heh heh.." - 22 april 3.03 [ dearie loves finding rd block, i dunno y! ha!]

"i heard it baby! i love u too! now im waiting for de train to cross! lol. reachin home le..dearie tk care wor..*kisses*" - 22 april 3.07

"its rainng men! haleluya..its raining men! amen..haha..i finally can walk home le. b4 tt i was lookin at our neo card, n i smiled wonderin wad did i do to deserve such a wonderful baby. thanks dear, u made my life so complete..i love u..miss u so bad..muackssss.." - 22 april 18.44 [ ha..tis msg simply made my heart melt]

"i love u, i wanna hug u now! i love u, i wanna hug u now! i love u, i wanna hug u now! i love u, i wanna hug u now! i love u! i wanan hug u now! i love u!!" - 25 april 12.01 [ dearie getting so high? lol.]

"ive been tryin to look for u for so long dear. u r my forever love baby.." - 26 april 12.05 [ de dae whr i had my interview, n he was late =(]

"ai wo bei zou, ru gou ni shou, ni bu ai wo. bu yao ting jian ni shuo chu kou, gei wo duo yi ge wen luan de ji hui. pls dear.." - 26 april 12.40

"it makes me feel better after accompanying u. i wan to spend time wif u too! i'll b ok after some rest. u dun worry..u giv me kisses can le! heh heh!" - 26 april 20.14 [ felt kinda bad having dearie to send me home always.. tired tired..]

"if u giv me time to prove, i'll show u tt all i wan is ur heart. i understand u hav ur past to overcome." - 30 april 2.49 [ dun tk my heart! i'll die! hee..]

"dear..rmb im here to walk u thru it..de past does not change de person u r..de future will. ive accepted it n u noe im committed. tk care..im always a call away." - 30 april 2.55

"i'll b by de fone..jus b reminded of me. de person hu loves n does not demand it. im here for u. heart aches to noe u r cryin. *hug*" - 30 april 3.03

"baby..ni jiu shi wo de wei yi, du zi dui zhe dian hua shuo wo ai ni..wo zhen de ai ni.. hope tis song cheers u up!" - 30 april 11.15 [ thanks my baby!!]

"im glad tt u r happy n u enjoyed urself. unhappy times r unavoidable but we'll pull thru tgt..love u lots baby. its ok to b tired. tk a gd rest wor." - 1 may 3.06

"baby i jus gt home. lets make de rest of our journey a smooth sailing one. wan an baby..muack muack!" - 1 may 3.15

"theres a first time for everythg sugar..but im de last..last guy u'll marry..but of cuz i'll also b de first..and also de only one.." - 2 may 3.31

"but i love u for hu u r..and no one's gg to change tt fact.." - 2 may 18.00 [ ok!! promise!!]

"wo ai de ni, rang wo kan jian hai de mei li..liu xia jiao ying, yong sha zi zhuang shang yi ping hui :)" - 3 may 13.36

"i'll jus let u noe tis is de only r/s tt de feelins were mutual. it stands out more than de traditional wae of getting tgt..it means a lot to me..tk care dear." - 3 may 23.02 [ ha! i was complaining! cos we both realise tt dearie din exactly 'chase' me like how other guys wld. lol. it jus happened, so naturally. lol. *blush*]

"dear slp tite, u'll feel better tmr..im by ur side wen u nid me..n tt she is no longer of my concern." - 4 may 2.27

"baby i havent slp..been missing n tinkin abt u alot..at tis early hr, hope u r slpin well..*whispers to baby's ear* wo ai ni..wan an.." - 4 may 4.54 [ my baby's a night owl! lol]

"baby i reali appreciate de time n effort u put into de present..it'll b a very nice addition to my home..darlin..xie xie ni..*muack + hugs*" - 5 may 18.02 [ hee, dearie saw de cross stitch meant for him, even wen its not fully done. supposed to giv him b4 our HK trip, but forgetful me forgotten to giv him! *ah bish*]

"dear i jus reach home n finish unloading stuff..i reali love de shoppin n sight seeing..sorry if i was a bit hot tempered n tired at times. hope after tis trip, we'll learn a lot more abt each other. i love u dear..i'll buy u many bags wen we go japan nex time. muack muack..tk care baby.." - 10 may 1.39 [ jus gt bk fr our HK trip.. japan nex huh? hee]

"its not broken..it'll nv b..its mine..:)" - 12 may 2.41

"theres no hapiness wifout u..i nv wanted u to leave my side..de things i feel jus tel me u r de one i love.." - 22 may 2.41

"sugary replies to baby jac.. => ive received ur kisses, their sweet, n ur love so tender, i love u baby..muack.." - 27 mar 10.33

"i dun wan to lose u too baby..i noe things can b talked out n settled. i wan to work things out too..i love u baby.." - 30 may 21.55

"u mean lots to me too..i believe things wil get better soon. for now, u better get well soon. otherwise im feedin u stinko cough syrup. heh heh.." - 30 may 21.59 [ shitty high fever..!]

"wo ai ni..ai zhe ni..jiu xiang lao po ai tummy! haha.." - 31 may 13.47 [ hee, dearie send me tis msg while workin, made me luff so much! hee..]

"happy 3 mths anni my baby! i love u! muack muack..hope u r recoverin fast wor.." - 31 may 23.59 [ oops, u r early baby..1 more min to go! lol..]

"dun worry abt it wor..fr start till now, til forever, i nv n wun leave u..rest at ease..eat medicine den go orh orh a bit..*hugs*" - 1 june 20.17

"i promise to come out a healthy baby for my dear to cuddle me! i miss u too sugar..but it wil b very fast de.." - 9 june 23.59 [ de dae he left for de greens... sob!]

"u gt me for a lifetime wor. dun worry..i'll b strong ok..u r my strong gal rite? i'll b wif u soon soon de.." - 10 june 00.02 [ i'll try to b strong..sigh~]

"baby i jus had breakfast..i miss u so much..muack..hope u miss me too..i love u baby.." - 11 june 7.27

"baby im missing u so much too! been tinkin of u every nite..tk care of ur health my darlin..i'll b out soon.." - 12 june 12.39

"hey baby! i love u..i miss u so much..im gg for dinner after doin some push ups on my own. tk care k.." - 13 june 17.22

"somehow i knew u wld react tis wae. couldnt slp de whole nite. n its heart breakin to c u msg me tt. but i understand. i jus love u so much. " - 15 june 5.40

i hope tis entry surprises u baby? jus wanna let u noe, u r being missed! ah chew ah chew! hehe... :p

LOVE YOU!!

- jac

long post eh!

2005-06-15T20:30:00.000-07:00

Sunday

due to de upcoming wedding of my cousin nex Sunday (19/6), my family decided to cel Father's Day 1 wk in advance! =) i headed to my grandaunt's plc first for lunch cos de daughter-in-law's baby gal jus turned 1 mth. *smiles* afterwhich, i dunno y, but my family ended up at Parkway again. lol. we shopped a lil while in de noon, gt many bottoms tt dae. gee. :p mummy was complaining tt her bonus hav not arrived, n im spending it away. geez. wen to cut my hair too. so short now! sob! unexplainable ah! sheesh. =( we waited for my brother to make his wae dwn den had dinner at de Thai Restaurant. my 2nd time thr, and i muz sae, de food reali taste gr8! (so far la..ha) mummy ordered sooooOoo much! had a hard time finishing it! lets see...we had..

pineapple rice:

satay:

hor fun:

crab:

kangkong:

fish:

we needed a walk cos our stomachs were so bloated. lol. had a short walk.. den headed home soon after. super tired, dunno y. gt hm, treasured de times of my wkend.. waited for dearie's call, den .. zzZzz....!

Monday

monday blues?? no?? yes?? ha.

not exactly.. tho work is stil sian la. ha. i love de morning times, wen i haf de chance+time to tok to my fren, Belle. a cutie pie. gee. she's so small size, wif her sunshine smile, i tink it makes everyone smile lo. =) very glad we hav common topics to tok bout, cos it jus makes de work less sianified! haha. at least de time pass faster lar. :p

after work, headed to town after sucha long time! gee. wen there to mit babe aka angeline! =) wow wow, been 2-4 mths since we met up to chat? bumped into her a few times la.. but tis time, it was planned! hehe! *smiles* as usual, we chilled at Taka Mos Burger! lol. it nv change! gee. i guessed de whole nite, i was ranting to her, complaining how sucky my job was. lol. thanks for de listening ear babe! =)

peiling came to mit us after her work too. seems like she's de only one enjoying her work now. =) tho its been so long since we met up, de frenship is stil there amidst our busy busy schedules, n im reali contented wif tt. we hav other commitments like r/s, studies etc, so its reali hard to find common slots to mit up at times. anyway, thanks babe for tt short chill out! i appreciate it!

tok to dearie for a short while at nite. he signed up for some insurance thingy at jus 16 bucks per mth! ok la, quite cheap lo. =) anyway insurance is a do- it- now, or do- it- later kinda thing. sigh. as much as i miss him, we cant tok on de fone for long, in case de fone batt jus dies off. sob. =( baby i miss u~

Tuesday

decided to b a gd gal and hav dinner at home. hehe. =p miss mums' cooked food! mum tried a new dish - Prawn coated wif oat! sadly, it din turn out like how those Chinese restaurants always cooked. nevertheless, it was stil delicious! yummy! muz add to my recipe! :)

work was so gd today cos i managed to finish my stuff by 430! hehe! but, i stil hafta stay til 530 la. lol. de officer apparently had sth on after work i tink, so he wen rd telling ppl tt he'll balance all de cheques by 530, ha. n he did la, after i waited for an hr. lol. finally, nv ot today! *smiles*

din tok much to dearie at nite, due to de poor reception. i seriously couldnt hear him clearly, and both of us jus wen "huh? huh? wad did u sae? huh?" which gt quite irritating after some time. sigh~ hope u'r doin ok, baby.

Wednesday

its only mid wk n im feelin kinda lethargic. i slp quite early nowadays somemore. ever since started work, my body's been aching quite bad. sob. dearie msged me in de morning tt he took 2 injections. lol...for some protection thingy..gee. :p it feels jus so gr8 to receive sms-es fr him, even wen he tells me sth i aint sure of! hehe..

hav always been dreading de lunch time cos im de only one having de 1130-1230 slot.. i was so happie today, hee. Ro purposely came jus to hav lunch wif me! thanks gal! =) even tho its jus tt short hr, it means so much to me! thanks Ro! *hugs* supposedly, meeting Ro and joyce after work, but Ro had sth urgent to attend to at nite, so it was last minutely cancelled. =( hope to see u guys soon! =)

1 more hr, shld b receiving dearie's call. hee. he's usually freed fr his stuffs by 930. =)

ha..i was so bored jus nw (b4 writing tis entry) tt i decided to try out some quizzes. lol. long time since i did quizzes! hehe! =)

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You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

Your Personality Love Style

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Your type of personality: Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

What does being a friend mean to you? You value your friendship: 70%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Are you Nosy? Nosy Level: 50%

You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.

How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?

You will never expect to control your boyfriend or husband. Your boyfriend and you will take turns to make decision and the decision is often acceptable to both of you. Whatever you want to let him know, you can just tell him straightforwardly. This is a good relationship, a pretty modern one.

Your Hidden Talent: The Mass Communicator

You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

miss u sooOOooo much!!

2005-06-11T20:20:00.000-07:00

Thursday

so happie, de lady supervisor is havin her last dae todae. =) *evil smile* i only respect ppl hu giv respect to others. dearie met his fren in de noon for lunch, den came to pick me up after work. smiles! gee. feels so gr8 to see him. =) even tho we jus met de previous dae. :p since its dearie's last dae of 'freedom', i told him to choose wad he wanna eat, since he wun get so nicceeee food in army liao. ha. we decided on having food at Old Airport Rd! everythg thr v yummy! ordered de char kway teow + liver + prawn mee. *drools saliva* there's stil many more food to try thr wor.

dearie drove dwn to town after tt. cos reali v v long nv go thr shop le. wanted to get father's dae prezzie mah. :p everywhere's on sale, but my feet was killing me, so din reali walk much. headed to PS Carrefour after tt, cos dearie forgotten to get alarm clock. find until siao. appreciated each other's company til bout 1130 den headed home le. had to work nex dae, n dearie had to wake up early nex morn too. sigh~ its so hard to sae gdbye everytime. stood outside my plc for so long, couldnt bear to leave. i tink i made him cried. :/ sigh~ 2 wks wil b gone v fast rite? *hugs dear*

Friday

a lenghty dae to me. woke up having mixed feelins. pretty upset tt i couldnt send dearie off. it may nt b sth big, but, jus tout i shld send him home. sigh~ anyway, my co's mgmt sucks la, i cant tk leave. fullstop. argh. called dearie early in de morn. he had breakfast wif his parents, den dey accompanied him all de wae to Tekong, had lunch den bid goodbye. gt some sms-es fr him in de afternoon. *happie* occupied myself wif work. tried hard nt to tink of dearie *heartache* wonder how he is now... *ponders*

came home for dinner, cos ive not been wif my family for so long. =) tuned in to power 98 at 8pm, instructions fr dearie. hee. apparently, power 98 DJs wen dwn to Tekong, n all had a chance to make dedications. heard dearie's dedication at 9.27pm! hehe. *grin* {to jacqueline dearie, take very good care of urself, i noe u will be strong, from wilson latte} muahaha~ thanks baby! so gr8 to hear dedications after so long! =)

waited for dearie's call for kinda long. wen i almost decided to go to bed, my fone played Ryan Canberra's True! hehe... its dearie of cuz! buahahah... so happie can! *triple smiles* he's in Raven platoon. heard tt his grp gt a lot of jokers, haiyo~ he'll only booked out on 24th.. friday, time nt cfm. will be having dinner wif his family at his plc tt dae. yeah! =D we din tok long, to save up on his fone battery. *miss him so much*

Saturday

time pass pretty fast todae. mamnaged to finish my stuff by 1, but so sway, waited for de offciers to balance de figures, by tt time, aldy150. -.-" met my parents after tt. by de time we had lunch, it was aldy 330. *faint* so hungry! mummy wanted to try de steamboat opp bugis, along Tan Que Lam Street. she sae de tv always advertise, lol! it was our lunch cum dinner. lol. not bad la, tho i find it a tab pricey. eat until so full - we only took one round of order. :/ *big stomachs* shopped a lil while at City Hall + Bugis. legs too tired cos of gym yest! gt hm ard 7, n here i am! lol. waiting for dearie's call. his 3 meals always kinda early de. hope he's doin fine~

some pics updates~

de dae @ Suntec's Marche

Rosti wif mushroom!

half spring chicken!

sambal stingray!

the blurry us:

i look weird:

*love u baby*

my stomach's feelin weirdy now. de bus ride was so long n jerky, feel like vomiting now. my nose's bleeding nw. sigh~ meeting babe nex wk, finally! gee, we're both so busy, but its gd to find some time to update each other. =) Ro's in Malaysia, enjoy urself gal!

right now, i miss u soooOooo much dearie! *muacks*

all my guy frens gg + those inside army aldy, do tk care of urselves, will see ur mature n nurture to b a man soon! *thumbs up* will miss ya!

the 100th day~

2005-06-08T22:56:00.000-07:00

our life is running against time huh?

tml's thurs. dearie's gg in on Friday. wow. fast or slow, i dunno. work's occupying me, like half of my life. good or bad? u decide..ha.

dearie wen to buy his army stuffs on Monday, n also wen bk SP to makan. lol..miss de food there! :p ended up buyin nth, cos dey felt most cld b bought fr NTUC..no nid go all de wae to Beach rd..lol. met dearie at Bugis and we had dinner at V8 again. hee. yummy chicken cutlet. gee. quickly wen to check out de tube i wanna get fr Double Index. i jokingly said i wanna buy 2 same design, diff colour tubes den dearie bought it for me! hehe.. *smiles widely* gt de black n de white! bought a top fr U2 too, can wear for gym de, hee. 50% off! *aunty screaming* muahah...

Tuesday, my supervisor stil haven settled my password error. dey v funny, gimme a password which cant log me in. =( so i had to borrow here borrow thr, super mafan. so paiseh somemore. ppl hav to do their work also, den i machiam like to disturb dem. :/ lunch time, stil had bout half hr, wen shopping myself. lol. bought 3 tops for 20 bucks. cool! haha.. causal tops! =) met dearie at City Hall after work. so happie, we're gg to Marche! gee. long time nv been thr le wor. had my usual must call Rosti. *smiles* its so yummy can. *grin* also ordered the Sambal Stingray + Half spring chicken. delicious sumptuous dinner! treated dearie tis cos he's been paying for lotsa stuff! =)

dearie's been sleepin a lot..like a pig..lol. cant help but reali cor him a pig. ha. we wen pass Mphosis at City Link, tis green top gt my eye, but dearie gave me de look tt i buy too much stuff le, so i din get it, sob. =( din walked much after tt, took a cab home n we relaxed at de bench outside my block. *nice nite* oh n did i mention we watched Magadascar last wk n had a real gd luff? hehe... reali funny show wor..*move it move it* muahahah...

its de middle of de wk, Wednesday. dearie was supposed to mit de guys, but aiya as usual la huh, so pig!! i actually sneaked out fr office (jus to de pantry la) to giv dearie a morning call. i ended up getting scolded by tis no-rank ger hu tink she so damn big. grr~ ha..expected, dearie zonked out after my call. lol. all de wae to 3pm can! din wan to disturb him la, let him rest as much while he can lo. :p after Friday, he wun hav so gd life liao. buahahah~

work was nth different. as much as im getting use to it, part of me stil hates de job. and so..im stil on de lookout for job opportunities everyday. 830-1130, i'll b at tis 'A' dept, whr my fren is, den i spend de 3hrs tokin to her + doin my work. hehe... time pass faster tis wae. n we hav many stuff to tok bout. =) jus told dearie bout de 3 hrs convo n he was luffing n luffing.. "i cant believe tis" he said. lol. we're similar in some wae. e wae we do things..our past r/s etc. *great*

den 1130-1230 wil b lunch time, which is usually 15 mins lunch, 45 mins ~~shopping~~ walkin ard. lol. im getting bored of Tampines Mall & Century Square aldy. mayb i shld tk a train dwn to White Sands? haha, mad! i gt shou huo today again. *gee*

come 1230-1730, its hell for me at 'B' dept. time past super fast like FedEx lidat. even short breaks like gg to de toilet also difficult. finally gt my password today. =)felt so accomplished, finished my work today at 5pm. hehe. *happie* n i did everythg all by myself. *pats on my back* was stil early, so i cleared my table..did some filing.. place all my stuffs neatly.. send out all de necessary letters to customers, n tadah, time to sae bye-bye! lol. dearie came all de wae here today again, hee. had KFC for dinner. yummy Shrooms burger. =) i realise, de cheese fries is actually quite nice. muahha... dearie muz b luffing at me nw..lol..

took a train dwn to PS.. gt a pair of shoe fr URS. PS has reali yummy foods.. jus tt..it lacks Rotiboy! wahahha~ ever since i introed dearie to Rotiboy, he's fallen in love wif it! lol. so we made our wae to Bugis again. ha. had Mango Tango too. "i wun hav all these fr Friday"-dearie. haha.. he's gonna miz all de nice food man. :p

was kinda sad after tt. checked out Bugis Mphosis, tinkin of gettin de green top i saw yest at City Link. sadded, dey dun hav! dey called de other outlets, n all dun hav! *cries* reali sad can. cos i reali love tt shade of green. sigh~ jus nt fated i guess. =(

walked to Edge after tt. so refreshed to see those cutie stuff again like My Melody. lol.. instead of clothes always mah. heh. dearie gt me 4 pair of earrings, wonderful! so in love wif it! hee. nice colour, nice design. =) "u wear it lor, den wen im nt ard, u will tink of me mah"- dearie's logic. muahah..."i'll stil miz ya even if i dun wear dem baby. u jus made me teared wif ur entry".

dearie looked kinda tired, so we took a bus home after tt. so qiao can, saw my mum in de bus! hehe. bk hm blogging nw. waiting for dearie to get home. miss you, my baby. <3

The Arrival of NS.. Long Awaited This Day

2005-06-08T16:02:00.000-07:00

Finally I am here to update an entry.. Well I guess it will be my last entry for the next 2 wks. Reason being my appeal for early enlistment is successful.. Meaning this Friday will be the start of my NS days.. I am in BMTC school 2 reporting at 11:30 in Tekong.. Any of my friends reporting at the same day and time.. contact me!

I am looking forward in experiencing new life.. I was so ecstatic when I received the call from CMPB.. Yahoo!! I’m treating NS with an open mind, to meet new friends and have fun.. of cos.. Ultimately is to keep fit.. haha.. I need to get rid of the excess fats tt is surrounding my waist!! I must admit, there are things that I cant bear to leave.. firstly I know dearie is not at all excited abt me gg in.. Its like a sudden shortage of time to be tgt.. But early in early out yah? Dun worry baby.. Well lucky my family seems ok with it, I guess they kinda anticipated the day will come.. My friends.. one of them, ah fat, has gone in already, I dunno why but it’s a bit saddening my grp of buddies are not in same day same time same school with me.. Haha wishful thinking, life’s like that I suppose.. (Just nice the commercial played I like to Move it Move It from magadascar)

Ytd just had marche with my baby.. I am suppose to have marche with my poly buddies but as usual, I overslept and Alvin was cursing me! Otherwise I would have been eating rosti again and not blogging.. lol…Hm.. I dunnoe when it started but I feel a pinch in my heart at the tot of leaving for ns.. 2 wks I am unable to see dearie.. There’s this slight pain in my heart tt would go away..

To Dearie:
Dear, I noe its tuff maintaining a r/s when I am in ns.. I noe that u depend on me for support but ns is something compulsory that I have to go and leave u to fend for urself.. I hope during these period, u will exp fair times in work, family and friends.. Even if the going gets tuff, u must be tuffer and pull thru difficulties yourself… I do feel sad that I am leaving for ns but I noe u understand… Its been 3 mths now.. There were both gd and bad times… I do see a future tgt and I hope we can pull thru this..

I love u Dear…

Now I will go get rdy and pick u up from your work place! Hehe..

congrats!

2005-06-07T23:31:00.000-07:00

wooh~ another news of my fren getting married. 1st 2 my cuzzie, now its my fren! ha... of cuz nt my fren hu's so young la... tadah, he's 30 liao! muahha...yeap yeap, James! tinkin of de times wen i was so crazily in love wif him, makes e wanna luff out loud. wahahah~ muz hav made de ppl by my side crazy too. lol... glad tt he's bk wif de previous one again. heh heh.. =) so many xi jiu wor~ suddenly so many ppl getting married, makes me so envious. *grin* wen's my turn?? *oops* im stil dreaming. LOL.

i love u

2005-06-06T23:51:00.000-07:00

as mentioned, here's de pics!=)

3 boxes given to dearie, letting him open himself. gee.

tadah! 1st look of it..

a clearer version! yup, i love u! de jelly was so slimy, i was so afraid tt letters wld get mixed up. hee. :p

now i see it, i feel kinda stupid of me to do all these. dunno y. ha..

~LOVE U BABY~

Hugs,
jac

1 wks gone~

2005-06-06T00:43:00.000-07:00

heh heh..new blogskin..*smiles*

its June already..time past fast yeah. hmm. tml's a workin dae 4me again. oh no..monday blues. ha.. sian 1/2. im feelin much better after my 2daes MC liao. wednesday, totally numb+weak. jus laid on de bed, nua-ing. totally gt no energy to do anythg. dearie bought lunch 4me, accompanied me til bout 4 b4 he left hm, cos he wasnt feelin well too. *hugs*

i wasnt allowed to go out - order fr him. =( it was our monthly anni. made sth different tis time. he's been sajiao-ing tt ever since de first time i cooked for him on de 2nd dae we were togeda (at West Coast), i nv cooked for him anymore. so tis time rd, i did sth lo. Konyaku jelly~ sth tt i was crazy bout last time wen my mum first cooked it. hehe. every nite, she'll try different flavours n let us b de guinea pig. *grin* made de milo-flavour for him. (waiting for him to send me de pic)

well,basically jus nua-ing at hm til nite time..den zzz v early. blame de medicine! ha..lol..

Thursday, dearie bought lunch 4me again (he was late tho..ha). no appetite, but was forced to eat sth.. worse, i cant taste anythg at all. sigh. i cant taste spore's gd food! *sulks* after tt, i pestered dearie to bring me out. he said if my fever was gone, he wld bring me out. heh heh.. thr wasnt much of a fever le, except for flu+cough. yippe, so i can go out! hehe. jus a short one. dinner @ Bugis. =)

tok to babe over msn few daes bk, she's bk fr Shanghai wif her bf! hee, so happie for her, things gg good good for her! =) viv, how've u been? hope u'r doin good too kae! babe+viv+pigs, i miss ya! do tk care eh! =)

come Friday, was so sian cos hav to go bk work liao. ha.. sama sama lo.. den so sian can, de cheques so many again. i c liao also super duper low mood. grr~ jus waiting for knock off time man. :/ i headed to Spore Post to wait for dearie. bought him his fav Mango Tango. hehe.he was stuck in a jam. we wen over to Parkway to get lao da a bdae cake! =) den wen over to ECP to celebrate. so lucky, it din rained! de clouds look so dark wor. wasnt feelin tt well tt nite. totally no appetite. weird, im always sucha pig. but tt nite, reali din felt like eating.

left ard 11+ cos nex dae had to work, while dearie stayed over wif de guys. Saturday's work wasnt too bad (as usual). de cheques on saturday always can handle de..im so glad. =) i finished my stuff ard 1230 somemore.. but i couldnt leave. =( sigh. lagi worse, dey couldnt balance, so i stayed til abt 2..haiyo~ imagine 1.5 hr jus sit thr wait for dem to find their mistake. grr!

after work, wen hm to slp..continue my pig's lifestyle. met dearie at 9. sat at my condo thr tokin.. gg off, he piggy-backed me..hee.. had a late dinner at Kopitiam, den headed home. dearie's turn to b sick le. *sayang*

Sunday, laze ard on bed de whole morning. feels gd eh. but de tout tt i jus wasted half a dae kinda sian. nw muz treasure all my wk ends le. :p wen out wif my parents, to Parkway (again), cos mummy wanted me to look for my clothes for my cousin's wedding in 2 wks time. muz wear all white. bought 2 skirts fr Esprit cos mum couldnt decide which i shld get. lol. gt a Adidas shorts too.

ive decided to wear shorts n mit dearie on daes tt i feel like slackin. ha.. mum gt her clothes too. nice matching top+skirt. =) had my long long time nv drink teh-ping at yakun. lol. dearie came ard 5. walked a bit more, b4 we left for dinner cos dearie was hungry. hee.*my piggy*

din do much, jus enjoying each other's company. =) short day, but gr8 time. *smiles* oh, did i mention, my dearie wld b away for 2 wks.. *sob* he's enlisting tis Friday. sad, but happie for him, cos getting in early was sth dearie has always wished for. so yup, happie for him. =) go in early, come out early. *smiles* sadly, i doubt i can send him off, cos i cant tk any leave. =( hmm. so nw, tryin to spend as much time as i can wif him. 2 wks nt v long, but i'll miss him la. :p

miss his act cute eyes, miss his wink-wink eyes, miss his big big grin, miss his tight tight hug, miss his cold lame jokes, miss his loud loud laughter, n more more. (dearie, i miss de pickles ur mum always made for me too! hehe..) tout of hw m i gonna spend my time wen dearie isnt ard..hmm. cant b meeting my frens everyday also..ha.. time to go to de gym again! lol. dun wan to b fatter than dearie wen he comes out. lol. tinkin of takin back Exotic Dance class again. it cost quite a lot tho. n de location quite ooh lu. dey hav 2 locations nw. i wan to hav my time well-spent! heh. learn sth better than rotting at hm eh? =)

somehow, i do miss sch. seeing my frens excited over their timetables etc makes me wanna hav lessons too. geez. i stil aint sure whr i shld go. part of me stil wish to tk up de Shatec course. sadly, its jus a Diploma. tts wad holding me bk. sigh~ been my interest all de while, but sigh..

spore is all bout qualifications..sob! doubt my chances of getting to local uni is high, so nex option wil b SIM le, tho many of my frens discourage me to. SIM, den got to wait til nex April le. mm. meantime work den~ stil on de lookout for better jobs. shall stay strong wif de current one first! time to save money. grr~

miss u, dearie. *hugs*

Lots of Love,

jac

sigh sigh..

2005-05-31T20:37:00.000-07:00

im feelin so weak now. restless. today is like one of de worst dae tt happen to me. yest in de office, i was sneezing real bad. it affected my work concentration but i tried to do de best i can. for fear of dem saying i slackin or wad..after work, met dearie n gab for dinner @ Bugis V8. i couldnt eat anythg fried, so had pasta. felt reali unwell n dizzy, so headed home. these few daes ive been slpin early..like ard 10.. gd ger huh? lol..

today..i woke up feelin as if im dead. i couldnt wake up in actual fact. dad told me to c a doc, cos i was sneezing like 10 times in a row. ha..but stubborn me refuse to. i wen to work instead. i noe im sick, but it wasnt to de extent tt i couldnt do a single work. wen to work..sian..but stil smiled to pple. work was de same la. i was stil sneezing.. wifout knowing, i finished using 2 packets! was struggling cos my nose jus kp running..

to make matters worse, we had a meeting today n i was indirectly kena shoot. =( after tokin de major issues, my supervisor (who's leaving soon) said: "and also, if de posting are too much to b done, pls do cor for help. no one can b a hero at it". she din mention my name, but hello she was lookin at me, n de fact is im de only one doin posting lo?! tho pissed, i act as if nth happen, jus nod my head all de wae. of cuz i was so pissed off. u tink i wan to b hero? pls lor..crazy! nt tt i dun wan to ask for help.. once in awhile, my supervisor do come ard to check de work load. den she always claim i can finish all, even wen i told her its a bit too much, n we wil nt b able to finish by de cut off time.

wad can i stil do man? hav to obey her orders wad. i cant vent my anger in de office. i wanted to complain yet i noe it wil make things wrse for me. everyone wil hate me. posting today was hell. (actually everyday is) i was so angry so i insisted on doin slowly.. see if dey wil ask anyone to help a not.. ha..im so wrong man! sigh~ if nt for de contract.. i wun stay anymore. hai~ while workin, i was holding one piece of tissue on my left hand n de other typin. one of de supervisor even tout i was fakin to b sick! to hell! argh..

met dearie at Bugis after he met his fren. i dunno y but everythg got even worse. he claims tt i wasnt tokin to him in a nice tone. i felt so down, cos im already soo sick, yet he doesnt even show a bit of concern. plus de stress fr work, i couldnt tk it n jus cried at de food court. i felt reali shit cos all i wanted was for him to display a bit of care. after his dinner, we wen straight to de doctor. dizziness is so irritating. coudlnt walk properly. cab was so hard to find so we took a bus instead.

dearie came wif me to de clinic. after de doc measured my temperature.. he showed de thermometer to dearie, which i saw 36 degree. tinkin, i tout heng ah.. mayb only flu, nt too bad. nv did i noe..i saw wrongly! it was de opp side ma.. so it was actually 39 deg. y de doc showed dearie first? hmm. he said my giddiness was due to my fever too. n de runny nose + cough jus came all at once. makin me feel so lethargic.

he gave me 2 daes MC. i finally can rest. de work is reali a torture. how can dey make us work until lidat? sigh.. prolly im jus so incompetent. shouldnt b complaining so much. thr r ppl much worse off, having 40 deg etc. *frown*

on a happier side.. last wkend was spent fruitfully. gee. dearie picked me up fr work.. at nite, we had dinner at Si Chuan Dou Hua n so sway.. my shoe broke. sigh. one of my fav shoe wor. gt hm to tk another pair den headed to West Coast to mit dearie's frens. chan's poly frens came along too. =) b4 tt, dearie let me drove his car. n i jus scared de hell outta him. guess he wun allow me to drive anymore. *sulks*

we played Mafia at Mac again. lol. it was some sort a gathering for de guys since dey wld b away for NS soon. afterwhich headed to Marina to play pool. left ard 4. was kinda tired liao. spend de nite wif dearie, den gt home ard 12noon, after breakfast cum lunch. lol.

feelin as if im emitting heat rite nw. it totally sucks. i cant tok well. i cant breathe well. damn it. nt in a v gd mood nw either. sigh. bad things r always happening. *double sigh*

~wish u were by my side~

Love,

Sick Jac

happie for u debbie!

2005-05-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

tho yest was only a short time wif dearie, thanks dear for coming over n fetch me! *grin* im so sorry for making u wait..work la! blame de work blame de work! LOL... *thank u*

soon Saturday wld b over n its Monday blues again. sigh~

heh..debbie, im so happie for u! tis fren of my, her bf planned a surprise for her, n wen dey met up for dinner yest, he made her tear wif joy, wif a digital camera in front of her! wow.. de bf bought her de camera tt she always wanted. correct model, correct colour! can imagine her happiness at tt pt of time! muz b speechless rite? hee. im gald for u too babe! =)

k la..gonna hav breakfast wif my parents liao! :p

Love,

Jac

Oh La La.. Friday..

2005-05-27T15:55:00.000-07:00

Argh.. listening to the infuriating noise of the grass cutters and vacuum cleaners.. kinda irritating.. Woke me up from, it may seem, my eternal slumber.. Didnt go to work today, anyway i have quited.. cos i found another warehse job at jurong shipyard tt pays better.. Or at least i feel have better employee welfare... OT standard 1.5 time, but i dun get it in popular.. Gr... So off i go to jurong shipyard on monday.. Now since i am awake, i tot i'd give dearie i surprise by fetching her from her workplace, dun have the car now but at least we can spend a lil more time tgt..
Last few days have been a blast.. driving ard while overblasting my ald mod speakers (by the previous owner) haha.. shock.. yeah.. excited.. HELL YEAH... the engine's so much smoother, suspension alot better, not much road feedback.. cool.. damn satisfied with the price my dad paid.. just 20k for a car with 6 yrs of life! woHO!.. Listening to hybrid theory, refresh, rave party 4, moffats, 98 degrees etc.. I am just happy to be able to drive..
Just had a one nite stay at the AmenZ chalet.. damn it.. i just rmb the Mafia game ah chan tot us.. Had a freaking gd time lying ard, saying i am the doctor.. (actually i wasnt, i was the killer) at least i lied my way thru and save my skin from being voted dead! on this note, we have found out whose the dumbest civilian alive! Birdie aka Koh Seng Heng!!!! wahahaha.. he claims his the doctor and save hui and hao.. but ah fat.. claps and gives us a spastic face saying "Very interesting story, but i am the real doctor" Everyone burst into luffter! we couldnt believe how dumb birdie was, ok fine he claims he wanna make the game more int, LOL.. but he just made himself to paiseh lor.. PPL whose present there will agree on this following statement.. "Kill the Bird, we MUST!" *falls to the grd luffing*
Been out on a mini steam boat consisting of me jac gab nich jen and wernie.. Ate pretty alot, i felt tt again, i ate too fast.. causing me the extra stomach space to fill more food inside.. hoho.. oh y eah after the steamboat, when everyone was sweaty and have a particular bbq smell, we went to play pool, hoho i seven ball nicholas.. yippie.. he chalks the cue too much! so must stop him from wasting valuable time.. = money...
Most of my buddies are gg into army soon, really gg to miss their company, jokes, and infectious luffter.. Gd luck my friends and comrades.. May NS not make our friendship drift apart... i still have 3 mths to bum ard be4 i feel the lvl of worry increase be4 i get in.. Well.. adios my friends.. =)

By Wilson

friday is coming!!

2005-05-26T21:41:00.000-07:00

daes have been tiring tt i dun hav de energy to blog. sigh. getting old. work is horrible i tel u. argh. oh yea, tis was de cd we got. hee.wooh!!

some pics taken last wk i tink. on de wae to Rav..

dun ask me wad i was doin here..lol..

these taken at pasir Ris Park last wk:

Monday

yeah! public holiday! *smiles* now all these holidaes means a lot to me man!! ha.. met dearie in de afternoon. my memory is failing me, but i sorta rem tt we wen to town. b4 tt we wen Bugis i tink? town was surprisingly not many ppl! heh. im so happie i bought a top fr Bebe! hee. been long since i spot nice clothes thr lo. :p wen shopping ard.. was actually lookin for my bro's prezzie. after much dilemma, i gt him a cap fr Flash & Splash! i love tt design! gee. bought a top fr Annex too. haha..dearie said tt top reminded him of Ou Xuan. lol.

we saw some car showroom at Taka too. nice Gen 2! =) *smiles widely*

by de time we finished shoppin, was ard evening liao. had a steamboat gathering at 6 so we set off early lo. of cuz, we ended up early. lol. gt thr like ard 5? den we started playin UNO cards in de car to kill time. hehe.. so dumb eh? lol. was fun tho. *grin* picked dem up fr de stn den off we wen for Marina steamboat! well, altho nt many turned up (only ard 6), dinner was neveetheless gr8. haiya~ sometimes too many ppl, also hard to interact eh. overall was fun. heh heh.. wif de "chup" sauce dearie n i cooked.. wernie's stickdown-the-prawn-head action.. farnie. LOL. he practically jus ate prawns lo. lol.

we filled our stomachs for like 3 hrs b4 heading to play pool. lol. gt hm ard midnite i tink. nex dae gt work ma. =(

Tuesday

work was shit la. sigh. made my dae pretty bad. my head was hurting de whole dae. din felt in de best condition. gt hm straight after work. i felt like sleepin, yet had to wait for sis to b bk b4 we cld celebrate my bro's bdae. mummy bought a Swensen's Mango cake. yummy! i din had any appetite to eat tho. :/ had fever tt nite. wen to slp immd after cutting de cake. my bro's 18! *happie birthday my dear boy*

dearie ot til pretty late..sigh..

Wednesday

whole body was aching. fever was subsiding. wen to visit a doctor. after tt realise tt dearie din go for work. took off last minute cos he wasnt feelin well too.

had lunch wif him. din walked much cos my head was kinda giddy. i feel as if im gonan walk zig-zag. sigh~ ard 3+.. dearie decided to go over to de chalet. was de Amenz chalet. met dem at de bowling alley first. after tt dey wen to Aranda chalet. heh heh.. some played mahjong, some played PS.. wooh~ happening. dinner was @ Fisherman Village. *delicious* we took a slow stroll bk after tt. gd exercise man. lol.

at nite was de fun part. chan howe intro-ed us tis game tt made all played for hrs! lol. using cards to play ard wif roles like killer+civilian aka citizen (lol)+doctor+ detective. very funny game. had a gr8 time wif dem. din stayed thr cos had to work nex dae, so i left ard 2am so tt dearie wld b in time to catch his soccer match. =)

Thursday

off to work~ work in de morning was fine. stil manageable. i was feelin super sleepy tho. i practically close 50% of my eyes. lol.

come lunch time...my new officer suddenly said he wanna eat wif my fren and i. for wad reason i din noe. but de whole office were like tokin bout it lo. grr~ after tt he told us its bcos my fren is leaving le, and im de newcomer mah..so its like a farewell cum welcome dinner lo. as simple as tt. he treated us to Cafe Cartel. chit chatted. apparently, he stays near me. LOL. walkin dist. haha. so qiao~ he worked in HSBC b4..hmm. he seems pretty blur in our dept tho. ha..

afternoon work was hell. initially i was stil coping well. tryin to do de best i cld cos i was left alone. my fren was asked not to helped me. i knew i had to face it earlier la, so ok, i did pretty fine.. manage to hit within de time. den after tt, dey gave me more work! omg. i felt like screaming, yet i couldnt. damn. cant dey jus get another person to help? today's cheque were like 3000+. argh.

3 different officers tellin me to do many things somemore. i only hav 2 hands, for goodness sake. =( i was pretty unhappy, but kept quiet. i din wan to get bullied, yet i din wan ppl to dislike me. sigh. wad to do? *sob sob* i ot for an hr..no choice.. i couldnt bring myself to tel dem tt i cant stay. hai~ wil see how things go nex wk. kinda stressed tt im nt eating well. gt hm, i decided to write notes for my work. shall bring a small bk to work now. hopefully it'll aid me in some positive wae. sigh~

now, de only incentive is being able to mit dearie on de wk ends (even tho ive to work on sat). work work work.. that's life.. boo! =(

Love,

Stressful Jac

jus wondering..

2005-05-23T13:14:00.000-07:00

What if..what if.. what if..

one day.. my life becomes similar to..

the gal in tong hua..?

~Life is so fragile, so precious..~

-Jac

the weekends

2005-05-22T10:14:00.000-07:00

im so lost~ lost bout everythg. sigh~

work is horrible. im nw workin de 830 to 530 time slot. but de horrible thg is 90% always has to ot. n im nt being paid. nor can i claim time off. wif such a pathtic pay, i feel so ill treated wen overtime comes! de worse thg is de job im takin over de gal hu's leavin on 2nd june, de job duties is like everythg lo! fr head to toe! argh! its nt so simple. n dey only assign one person to do. sigh~ heard tt b4 i came, many resigned le..even those hu hav worked for 8-10 yrs. now, even my supervisor is leaving. =( dunno how long i can tahan tis.

y cant dey jus ask another person to help me out! heard tt dey r tryin to cut cost. aiya, everyone is like doin tt lo. be it a bank job or wad. but c'mon man, u cant torture ur workers too rite?! there's a gal hu has been in de co for like 2 yrs, she's stil under contract lo! every other 6 mths, dey jur renew it, not wanting to convert her to perm staff. funny thg is, she's de top performer in our dept lo! there's only a single diff between contract n perm staff. bottomline: dey jus refuse to giv her yr end bonus. yes, so simple as tt. cos contract staff, we do get medical benefits as well as leaves to tk. sigh~ i hope dey dun torture me anymore. im only a newcomer. :/

met dearie on Friday after my work. he picked me up fr Jurong East den we wen off for dinner @ Newton Circus! yum yum~ heh.. *sits in his new car* aiyo vivian, de blog entry on de car hor..isnt written by me. lol. its a shared blog. n i dunno y, i cant seem to tag, so gotta reply here. =) dearie n i r equally surprise bout de new car. cos apparently dearie's father mention bout nt getting a new one after de old one gets scraped cos of financial constraints. hee, but its gd nw tt there's a new one! easier to mit my baby le! :p

we headed to Bugis - to buy techno CDs. lol. de ones we saw earlier..hee~ both were too excited le. *grin* as expected, we blast de music, drove dwn de road, wind down de de windows. muahahah~ it was as if it was our world yea? gee.

was workin de nex dae, so dearie din wan to stay too late. along de wae hm, 2 irritating guys tried to race wif us. dey kp starin over, n de nex thg we see: dey also blast their music. -.-" grr!

Saturday spells work again. sob.. wen for breakfast wif my parents b4 work. had a tok wif dem bout work..grr~ life, life.. sigh~ during work, i was only lookin forward to 130. *grin* dearie send his mum to his aunts plc b4 coming over so i had some time to buy food. heh, nt for me, for him! ha.. reason for his tummy huh? gee.

we headed to Raffles City to mit my parents. father said his co had tis free Star Wars tix thingy, asked if i wan cos my bro ended up rejecting him. so ok lo. drove to Cine..omg..it was jamming like mad.. we were like in de car for 30-40 mins? jus fr City Hall to Cine. -.-" show started ard 4.. wow~ de cinema is like exculsively to DBS bank nia. had free popcorns n drinks too. =) was so paiseh.. cos my father's colleague saw me. (i jus realise its my father's boss. oops.) de show was pretty nice. at least better than i expected la. de sound n lights were purrfect too. de show was a tad too long tho. 2 1/2 hrs! bcos of tt, de parkin was hell! 9 bucks can! *heartbreak* i jus top up de cashcard, den 9 bucks gone le. *sob sob* glad dearie enjoyed de show too. =)

wen over to PS Pastamania after tt. *hungry stomachs* din walk much. dearie decided to pick jw n sh up fr cck, so yeap.. enjoyed de music in de car again. lol. nth much to tok bout at nite. cut things short, we were basically watchin de Man U vs Arsenal match n also celebrating their primary sch fren's bdae at Rav. one of de clubs at Boat Quay. gosh~ im like totally disgusted wif de ppl thr. de gals, i mean. even CB is like better? omg~ dearie had same sentiments. de gals were like..sluts?

de gals nt only gav de "come n fuck me" face. dey wore clothes tinkin tt dey r sexy, but actually its a horrible scene. de clothes... erh... dey mite as well dun wear? cos it doesn cover anythg at all? yes, its tt bad. lol.. dearie said jw became extremely high, after lookin at those gals (hu were jus beside us). plus, his seat was like near chimneys (de term he use. lol) ah.. everyone was like smokin. lol. de music was gd tho. except for de crowd. turn off~ sigh.

yup, tt was our Saturday nite. =)

*stomachs nt feelin ok now*

Love,

Jac

Shu Shu Shaking!!

2005-05-19T22:47:00.000-07:00

OhiYo~.. Just got off the fone with dearie.. thus i am here to blog! haha.. Well the 2 most exciting things tt happen recently is.. WORK.. and my "NEW" sunny ex saloon..
1stly work.. Ok lah.. been working for Popular Warehse for.. 2 days.. damn shag lor.. its a warehse job, wad'd can i expect any less.. Been doing OT also.. till.. 8pm? grr... dun have 1.5 pay somemore.. Grr.. oh well... wei le qian.. Ai Pia Jia Eh Yia! Earning a seriously humble pay.. haha..

Well i am more excited to talk abt my "new" sunny... haha its great my dad got this car for a really cheap price.. cos of the $1/- downpayment on new cars, 2nd hand cars are like.. not worth buying? but with my familiy economics.. a cheap car would do.. still a car ya? haha.. i will try to rev it up to 5000rpm tmr.. VROOM !

Darn! my back sorta hurting now.. been carrying loads and loads of books... Sweating like swines and hungry like mad.. Pls lor.. wan me do ot.. at least let me makan 1st mah.. grr..

Ah.. dearie had an int day today.. She wen to open her acct with standard chartered.. Initially couldnt find the building.. apparently its blk out of sight.. Hehehe.. *ouch, back hurts again* I need to go for a back massage liao.. grRRrR... (Just finishes watermelon).. Ok.. guess i will end it here.. Still pretty much excited abt the car.. Tmr can drive it ard liao.. wahahah! with none other than my baby to be beside me.. Wan An..

Love,

Wilson

sooOooo shag!!

2005-05-18T23:15:00.000-07:00

finally home! *tired* i bet dearie's tired too..sigh..*hugs* din wan to blog but since i cant get to slp, den write lo. nw too full to b able to slp. guess its de pickles tt dearie's mum gave. grr~

work was so-so today. i was bloody early ah. grr~ ppl thr r average lo. i prefer to remain neutral on tis first. work was manageable but sianified. lookin at cheques de whoel dae, n of cuz de computer..gosh~ jiu ming arh. credit cards has 16 numbers.. savings a/c has 10 numbers..grr~

there's also a risk in keying in de wrong amt to b chequed in cos $1000 muz b keyed in as 100000. If u key in 100, it actually means $1 nia. stupid rite? urgh! ha..n a fool like me made tonnes of such mistakes today. boo! heng can double check one! if nt den die le! dunno how wil work b like tml. sigh~ wen is nov coming? *sob* guess de best thg i can tink of is de free vending machine it has lar. its like those normal vending machines tt u see.. jus tt here, u dun hav to pay lo. jus press wad u wan n tadah, de drink arrives! =) heh, dearie, jealous? lol..

oh, n i saw Dennis durin lunch today! my ex-colleague fr my ITP place. de gang tt intro-ed me Wala Wala n drove me ard during de ITP daes. he's nw workin in Citibank. cool~

knock off fr work..took a slow walk to de MRT. to get a seat, i decided to tk to Pasir Ris (1stop only ma) den sit all de wae lo. was meeting dearie, but he had to ot. i took to Boon Lay, tinkin of gg Jurong Pt, changed my mind, den headed to West Mall instead since its nearer to dearie's workplc. oh man.. *faint* dearie only came like 3 hrs ltr...zzZzz.... we'd a quick dinner @ BK. he was too tired to do other stuff liao. im starving too =(

wen to his plc (heh heh..i gt food fr his mum! gee.), den after tt dearie drove me hm after sending his fren home too. both looks so damn shag. *xin ku le* seriously.. it'll b reali tuff to mit. dearie's work always has last min OT. its hard for him to cfm anythg wif me. even meetin in central mite b hard cos of his long workin hrs. n i wld nt wan him to mit me in de central, send me hm, den go bk hm. im like makin him more shag? sigh~ sad to sad, both of us r workin on saturdays too! omg~ sounds as if we're workaholic man. =(

not much time for us to mit up. dunno how things wil go. it'll b totally different. will we b able to get thru tis? :/ wkends r like de only daes i look forward to now.. sigh.. but it goes off fast too. argh! sian!

doubt dearie is coming online? guess he's too tired to even switch on his com. lol. dearie, it'll b hard on u workin, n hard on us meetin up. hope u noe im always here givin u moral support. do tk gd care of urself. rem to bring lotsa water ah haiyo! *love u*

Hugs & Kisses,

Mocha

a new beginning~

2005-05-17T11:03:00.000-07:00

its a new blog. yea, i noe again. kinda sad to leave my previous blog cos i reali like de design, de skin..plus it contains all de small little memories+pictures i hv wif dearie+frens+fam. sad to sae, its deleted. yes, deleted. cos of some intruder tt came in. i wonder if u all saw it? was on de tag board itself. sigh~ anyway, tis's a new beginning. n no wae m i gg to delete tis blog tis time, cos tis shall b a combined blog: the makings of mocha and latte! *smiles*

Sunday was spent celebrating my parents 24th anni @ Parkway's Swensens. brother was so thoughtful, he bought a bouquet of flowers, den wen we arrived, he told my father tt its his job to pass de flowers to my mum. lol. mummy was happie, i believe. =) de meal was sumptuous. i wanted to intro dem de "apple crumble" after tt, but sadly, dey wen out of stock. only had banana crumble. so we had tt lo. not too bad too. at least dey liked it yea.

after tt we wen window shopping for a short while. bought my somewhat formal clothes liao. sis bought some stationery, den she wen home. bro also left after tt to pa-tho. my aunt called after tt. dey were intending to visit my mum's cousin, as his wife jus gave birth. so yup, off we wen.. to Old Airport Rd. wooh~ its a baby gal! been long since we had "new babies"! so naturally, everyone was excited over it. cutie pie =)

sat dwn thr n tok for awhile..how time flies etc. heard tt another cuzzie of my is gonna get marry too. omg...now its like, 3 on de list liao lo! 2 in June..de other one, date nt cfm yet. wow~ ard6, we left to my another aunts hse, cos she jus moved hse (also at Old Airport Rd).

de hse pretty nice, except for de stuffiness. de master bedroom looks reali huge too. like those private houses kind. better stil, tt area jus had a 24 hrs food area. n there's also a wet mkt. so all in all, not a bad deal la ha! tat particular relative of mine always hav like gd luck running into their family.. husband gt own biz.. my aunt is a lecturer.. de 2 children both v smart, top de sch.. in short, everythg is gd. =) my cuzzie is so lucky to get married to de son (which is also my cousin..lol).

my parents and i wen to de hawker centre to makan after tt. told dearie to come join us since he was on de wae le. de food's here pretty nice. most r recommended de lo. by newspapers ah.. U channels ah..etc. we had char kway teow, stingray, rojak, oyster omelette. dearie is so in love wif de char kway teow, altho de portion dey gave was pretty little..de hum gt so many! *eeEeeee*

mummy wanted to go Bugis after tt. y? she jus whispered to me:"Lee Hwa Jewelry" heh heh.. daddy muz b buying sth for mummy for their anni ba. =) den i was wonderin y mum din wan to go to de one at Parkway since we were there earlier..turn out, mummy was scared de salesgal wld rec her, cos previously she bought sth thr, de gal charge her 100 bucks lesser cos of her carelessness. de gal did call my mum to come bk n pay bk, but of cuz my mum din. lol. altho it has been like 1 yr liao...she's stil scared! LOL!

yup. so dearie send dem to Bugis. lol..

gt home de next morning ard 1030. soooOooo tired altho i slept a lot de previous nite~ gt home.. din reali do much, den i wen bk to slp again. zZzzz...tis is prolly de tiredness accumulated over so many daes lo.. now gt hei yan quan le..sob.

stayed home de whole of Monday. wasnt in a very gd mood cos of de blog thingy. long story~ dearie was so affected by it tt he wrote an entry in his previous blog. kinda shock cos it sounded so angry. sigh~ im oki now baby. dun worry ya? *hugs*

dearie wasnt feelin well. fever+cold. weather pretty bad these daes. kp raining man. so we din go out. dearie rested at home, wif panadols. nothin much to do at home too..been editing de template of tis blog.. dunno wad to do wif it too, cos i feel it looks pretty plain. hmm.

at nite, mum asks if i wanna go Bintan cos my aunty is bookin another resort. wil b in June. dad aint sure too, cos mayb he cant tk leave. i cant cfm anythg too. sob. nex wkend, dey wil b driving dwn to Malacca, stayin for 1 nite. mum ask dearie and i to go. sobs! i doubt i can! mummy asks me to tk leave..but daddy was like:"huh jus started work den wan to tk leave ah?" *same sentiments* it isnt v nice for me to do tt. ltr bad impression.. =(

slept kinda early last nite. having a bad headache in de late nites. sigh~ *pain pain*

today's Tuesday. hmm. Happie 20th birthday Joyce!! Hope you have many happy times wif ur boy-boy, and all de best to ya work life too! [Belated birthday to Wynn too! Best wishes to you and Yuhui!]

meaningful quote to share:

Love can nv be so beautiful wifout frenship, one leads to another, and de process is irreversible.. the best of lovers is the greatest of frens! =)

Hugs & Kisses,

Jac

Heart to Heart, Tgt as ONE

2005-05-16T19:58:00.000-07:00

Our 1st bloggie shared tgt as one.. i better snatch the 1st entry by telling u baby..

I LOVE U !!!

With Love, Wilson